Love vs. Hell

When the going gets tough..

2012-02-14T18:35:00.000+02:00

..it's wonderful to realize how great friends I have. Love you all!!

Not the devil you think

2012-01-30T22:34:00.001+02:00

You keep pushing me away.. but I'm not going anywhere.

Misery business

2012-01-23T19:20:00.000+02:00

You got scared after my confession, didn't you.. Even though I told you that I realize I don't stand a chance with you. All I ever wanted was for you to be happy. Even if it would happen with someone else instead of me. I believed in you. I believed that you could handle the truth. We've gone through so much together that I wasn't ready to give up on our friendship. We've laughed together, cried together, talked for hours, we have slept together.. But it seems like it didn't mean as much to you as it does for me.

Even though you seem like a million miles away right now (although living almost next door to me), I have no regrets. I know I've made a few mistakes but at least I was honest. And besides, you are My Favorite Mistake.

Doomed and Gloomed

2012-01-18T10:31:00.002+02:00

Lost my love, my best friend.. and my appetite.

Quotes from genious a.k.a... Me!!

2012-01-17T20:10:00.000+02:00

"Music never lets me down. People do."

Tesla - What You Give

2012-01-12T23:44:00.000+02:00

If only..

2012-01-09T23:29:00.000+02:00

If only I could
take away your pain
I would.
If only I could
mend your heart
I would.
If only you would
really see me
I could..

From 2011 to 2012

2011-12-31T16:12:00.001+02:00

As I look back the year gone by, I don't see any idea of making promises about being/doing better during the next one.. Since my year has been fulfilled with laughter, there has been happy and sad tears, I've gotten new friends, old friends, GREAT friends. And lost a few not so great ones. There's been love, there's been hate, disappointments and overcoming difficulties, little surprises that bring a smile to a persons face.. Plenty of gigs, loads of music. Some things have changed and some stayed the same. It's called life. It's my life. And I love it!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL OF MY DEAREST AND NEAREST!! And the rest of you too.

Sleep treatment

2011-12-20T00:08:00.000+02:00

Less stressed. Less smoking. Body and mind at ease.

Sleeping together made the difference.

And I mean just sleeping.

And I crave for more.

More sleeping.

Please..

You shake my nerves and you rattle my brain

2011-11-29T00:22:00.005+02:00

It's Monday night. And I've been smiling through this whole day. Had just a perfect weekend. Been laughing so much, so hard that my cheeks and my stomach are sore. But it's a good hurt. Saw two gigs, one on Friday and one on Saturday. And the man of my life, my nephew, visited me on Sunday.

But beginning from the start. I got a message from a friend I learned to know a bit better a week ago when on Rival Sons' gig. I was somewhat surprised to get that message but in a positive way. I had such fun with him on the RS gig that it was nice to see that he had similar thoughts about our friendship. So I invited him to my place on Friday and we had a few drinks, talked A LOT and then took out to the night time. We met our friend in the bar and watched the gig, continued talking about everything and between before Mr Charming continued to another bar, alone. I stayed in the first bar since I had some friends there I hadn't seen for ages but my phone kept constantly sending and reseiving messages from Mr Charming. His night didn't seem to go as planned and finally we ended up taking the same bus home. We continued the night at his place, listening to music and talking and talking and talking until we both fell asleep on the couch. I woke up few hours later, shook him awake and told him to get to bed as I left and started walking home, 9.30 in the morning. I got nothing noteful done on Saturday.

Until it came Saturday night and time to get out on a gig again. Met close friends, had a great time and the gig itself was amazing. Kept laughing although my stomach was hurting already from doing it. Continued to another place again, had a coke and once again headed home with the last bus of the night with Mr Charming. This time my place, more music and talking. 5am he headed home and I slept about four hours before my nephew came with his mom to visit me. Already the bus trip to city was exciting for the little guy, his first time in a bus. :) We looked through some christmas decorations in the windows (Penguins!!! :)), and we met Santa Claus as well. Santa made the little hero act a bit shy but with the help of his mom they told Santa that he's hoping for some Lightning McQueen toys for christmas. Spent some quality time with him while his mom went to Ikea. We had a quick snack and then they headed home, the small trooper fell asleep as soon as he got into the car. But at least he had lots to tell dad, Santa seemed to be one of the top things. :)

I'm really feeling lucky.. lucky to have the best people as a part of my life.

Music maniac

2011-11-06T14:42:00.001+02:00

I had an interesting exchange of thoughts about music last night. And it got me thinking today a little bit further. I don't consider myself qualified to debate about music with musicians but that doesn't mean I don't have any opinions about the subject. The discussion yesterday was about my musical taste and about improvisation and about the "right" way to deliver music to your audience. And oh boy, you people have the wrong image of me if you think that my taste is limited to one music style. Yes, I do admit that my main interest involves mostly rock. But it's not the only type of music I listen to.

But to the point. I had one wish for the star of the yesterday's gig. I'd be happy if I'd get at least one song played and sung correctly from start to finish. The thing is that he prefers improvisation to the bottoms of his heart. But I don't think one thing rules out the other. I believe that the better you know and understand the original version of the song, the better you've learned to play it the original way, then that much easier it is to improvise and the better the end result. One does not necessarily need a folder filled with lyrics and chords on a gig but a set list does help without a doubt. And a set list can be planned loosely enough that there's room for that improvisation. The set list works like a spine: it keeps you up and going but it also allows you to do much more than just that. When you get those blank moments when you don't have any idea what to play, you'll just take a look to that set list and you're back on track again. Even with the set list one can fullfill wishes from the audience or play a song that suddenly pops into your head. The set list isn't the law, you can leave some songs out of it and add others. And the set list gives some sort of structure to the gig, so that one doesn't play just one type of music but can successfully mix different types of music. Mix it in a way that answers better to the expectations of the audience.

Improvisation is a good thing but to make it really work takes a lot of training. Let's think about acting for example. Sure, I could improvise a Shakespeare play, base it to the movies or theater plays I've seen of it. But knowing the original play, reading it and making notes of it would make my improvisation so much better. At least that's what I believe.

But with this said, the gig last night was good and I was having a great time. :)

Oh happy day..

2011-10-20T22:32:00.001+03:00

Had a special day today.

I met a friend and he made my smile come back. It's always awesome to meet amazing, wonderful people in person, face to face. It was just what I needed, just that little moment, talking, laughing, being myself..

Thanks for giving that little moment to me.. means a lot. Love you, biatch. ;)

And to top of that perfect "date", I got it!! One ticket to Hardcore Superstar gig in Turku. One fifth of a dream will be true. (And hopefully I can talk you over to that gig. No pressure, I promise. Just good friends, maybe a couple of beers and great music.)

I have a dream..

2011-10-12T00:06:00.000+03:00

If only I had extra money, I'd get myself that pro-style digital camera and follow Hardcore Superstar on their Finland leg of the tour in December, taking photographs, maybe getting to know them and have a blast.. maybe get some name for myself as a photographer and make a career out of it.. five nights, five cities, five gigs..

But being the poor bastard I am, I guess this remains only a dream...

Don't feel like...

2011-09-26T01:00:00.001+03:00

...sleeping alone. So I'll stay awake.

It's hard..

2011-09-20T15:07:00.000+03:00

..not to say it out loud.
But you said I can't do it to you.
And I shouldn't.
But I do..

When the going gets tough..

2011-08-23T14:03:00.002+03:00

Here I sit once again in awe.. wondering what did I do to deserve you two in my life. And feeling thankful of it. I guess I would be a total mess without you two..

J, you've been there a long time. You know more about me than anyone else (except maybe my little sister) and there's no friend I'll trust like I trust you. You've listened every story I've had to tell about my life, no matter happy or sad, no matter how twisted. I just hope I've been at least partially as good friend to you what you have been for me. And I hope you all the good in life because it is definitely what you deserve. You have earned it at least a thousand times by being kind and warm and by opening your huge heart for an outcast like me. You've made me laugh when all I felt like was crying and you've brought happy tears to my eyes when I thought nothing could touch my soul anymore.. I'm not sure if I can ever pay you back all the support you've given to me but I'm sure as Hell ;) gonna try my best.

A. We never really knew each other before and I guess we still have a lot of work to do on that.. but I am glad that you are a part of my life today. You are THE best friend of my most trusted friend, so I don't see any reason why I shouldn't trust you as well. You speak very little but when you do.. with just a few words you say more than some people say during their entire life. And you actually mean every word you say. You promise something and you keep it. And you promise a favour without asking what the favour is.. One just gotta respect that. And the sparkle in your eyes and the passion in your voice when the talking turns to music.. blind and deaf is the one who can't notice it. And it feels good to share that passion with someone who gets it without explaining (doesn't it?!).. I really do hope we'll be sharing many of those talks in the future. And hopefully not only about music.. :)

Damn I love you guys.

The big deal

2011-08-15T10:18:00.001+03:00

It never stops to amaze me how happy other people can make you.. I can barely understand this overwhelming happiness that comes from having those certain people in my life.. The little things: the person you thought dislikes you opening up and talking and talking and talking, hugs and smiles, little compliments hidden in a sentence, a friend giving you the ride home, sharing a music experience with someone that understands and feels it the same way you do, that right person online just when you need and miss him/her the most..

I can't stop smiling.

Gimme the beat boys..

2011-08-08T11:05:00.000+03:00

Gig on Friday was great and Ville Tuomi was fantastic.. but.. no matter what, my heart beats along with the bass..

Uncle Kracker - Drift Away

Ok then..?!?

2011-07-20T00:12:00.000+03:00

Uummmm... what the fuck? What happened there?
I thought we were cool..
but apparently we're not..?!?

You R so good..

2011-06-30T22:39:00.000+03:00

Me: "Missed you today.."
He: "Today? I've been gone for a week..!"
Me: " Yeah but... <3"

Laughing out loud by myself.. gotta love these men.. :D

Feeling..

2011-06-21T10:11:00.000+03:00

..privileged and honoured. :)

I was born as a dragon rider.

2011-06-18T12:29:00.000+03:00

Got a new tattoo yesterday.
Design and tattoo by Nouzka, a dear friend of mine.

The star I know you are..

2011-06-13T11:13:00.000+03:00

Loved to see you smile on Friday.. :)

Honesty hurts

2011-06-07T00:07:00.003+03:00

Honesty hurts
but I take pleasure from the pain
because I know
there is something to gain.

It ain't money, it ain't materia.
Becoming a better person
is the main criteria.

Burst it all out,
hate, resentment and jealousy.
I'll get over it,
how 'bout you? I guess we will see.

I find positivity
in my own honesty
while you become, antisocial,
your own casualty.

It ain't money, it ain't materia.
Becoming a better person
is the only criteria.

Assuming

2011-06-03T21:54:00.002+03:00

Just today I read an old saying from a book written by Nikki Sixx. "Don't assume, because you make an ass out of u and me." I'd love to say I don't ever assume anything, but I do. I do not assume that much of other people as I assume of myself, though, and of my life. Even today, after reading those wise words and kinda sucking the wisdom of them into me, I assume certain things. I assume I'll never get the man that I love. I assume I'll never have kid(s) of my own (And I so DO want, at least one, or two..). I assume I'll never be that wealthy that money isn't an obstacle between me and my creativity or an obstacle for me exploring the world the way I'd love to. I assume I'll never make it to the top of that mountain, I'll just keep taking one step forward and sliding two steps back...

When does this kind of assuming become an obstacle itself? When does the negativity stop one even wanting to try anything? I've assumed things previously as well. I've assumed that I love this and that person for the rest of my days. I've assumed I'll never love again. I've assumed nobody ever loves me. I've assumed I'll never be accepted as I am. And I still do assume that every new person I meet ends up hurting me one way or another. But god, how I've loved to admit it every time that I've assumed wrong!! I've been letting go of people that weren't there for me and I've learned that I can fall in love again. And I've been loved in so many ways I didn't even imagine possible. I've been surprised to find out that everybody doesn't have a hidden agenda when they want to get to know me..

So what do I do? I keep on working with the assuming. And boy, do I hope that even in the future I'll find out I've assumed wrong!!!

You can' t live with them..

2011-05-29T12:46:00.002+03:00

..and you surely can't live without them. Men. No matter who they are, father, brother, nephew, friend or lover. Just when you least expect it they'll make you smile and laugh and giggle like never before.

pic: http://www.ponandzi.com/

Don't you just hate it..?

2011-05-29T00:01:00.000+03:00

When people don't get the hints.. when they just stick with you all the time, all the places, listen all the discussions and take over your friends just when all you'd like to do is to have a one-on-one moment with those people that matter the world to you. They're like bandages glued to your skin. You know that it's time to let the wound breath a little but ripping off the bandage hurts like hell. It doesn't really matter whether you do it fast or slow, it hurts anyway. It is like that with those people-bandages as well: either you'll try to be nice and give little hints or you'll tell it directly to them. If they would only get those little hints, but nooooooo.. One way or the other you'll end up hurting their feelings even if you don't want to. Which is bad because those bandages might be great friends as well. And you don't want your friends to feel hurt, right?!

You know you do

2011-05-16T21:10:00.000+03:00

No matter what it takes..

2011-05-03T13:47:00.001+03:00

I was listening Mondo Bizarro's song My Funeral Day and made a decision. I will make one of my dreams come true before I turn 35.. no matter what it takes.

Three years on me to execute project HoH.. ;)

One of these days

2011-04-11T22:10:00.000+03:00

Some people just have that calming effect.. no need for words, it's enough to see that they are online, hanging there in the background. Being able to read their name on the screen makes one smile. Simply got to love that.

And the other ones.. to whom you can just burst out all of your thoughts, good and bad. And they always manage to say the right words. And just letting you put those words out there they calm your upwired nerves. Friends like that should be (and ARE) valued way up high.

Letters with L

2011-03-29T21:30:00.001+03:00

People often seem to think they know each others.. mainly that can be even the truth. But sometimes it's fun to reveal something that people don't have a clue of..

This is my confession...

I write letters. Those old fashioned pieces of paper stuffed in an envelope. I write letters basically to every people I consider close to me. I write letters about anything and everything, letters telling I miss you, letters about my goals, about my ambitions, letters with a lot of "I love you's", love letters even.. Sometimes it's just a little note stuffed in an envelope with the name on it, sometimes many pages of wandering thoughts written in the middle of the night.. Some of you might now think that you haven't got any of those letters.. That's true. I write letters that I'll never send.. You'll probably see them first after my death.. (There's a mission to my sister or brothers, try to find all the rightful owners of those letters after I've passed, hahaa..)

So, still think you know me..? Still got some surprises up my sleeve.. ;)

Some do, some don't, I might

2011-03-18T22:10:00.000+02:00

Naughty or nice?
You can guess
once or twice.
I'm definitely more
on the devil's side..

Ties that bind

2011-03-14T23:18:00.000+02:00

All the good ones are taken already...

Riot for everyone/No to censorship

2011-03-08T21:41:00.002+02:00

The thing is: Facebook deleted the picture below from Nikki Sixx fanpage in Facebook because they find it offensive/pornographic. Yet Facebook lets teenagers have profile pictures that are more revealing, pictures that are meant to be sexual.

The fans of Nikki Sixx took the matter to their own and started changing their Facebook profile pictures to the cover of the single. As they see it, this picture is a work of art and it shouldn't be censored. More than that, it is also a statement of us all being equal and beautiful no matter what we look like on the outside. The message is simple and it is best told in the new Sixx AM video. Beauty can be found in odd places.

Not only changing their profile pictures in Facebook, fans have spread the word all over the internet and the revolution can be seen also in Twitter. The pictures by Nikki Sixx are provoking, no doubt about that. But there's also some rough beauty in them. And besides, isn't art supposed to be provoking? Isn't it a good thing that it starts discussion about things that are wrong in this world? After having so many wars and riots so that we can have the freedom of speech and the freedom of expressing ourselves our own way, are we going to give up on that freedom just because Facebook (or any other company) tells us? Are we letting them to define what is art and what isn't? I don't think so..

And it seems like I'm not alone thinking like that.

More about the subject can be read also from Nikki Sixx vs. Facebook

Isn't it ironic?

2011-02-24T15:30:00.002+02:00

About two years ago my life seemed to be nothing but a huge mess. I was nearly breaking down, almost felt like having a burn-out. I made quite a big sacrifice back then and left a bunch of people behind, some of them really important to me and some who didn't mean a thing to me at the end of the day. And I survived, I got back on my feet and took a grip of my life again.

Lately, I've felt tired and fed up again. To put it nicely, I can't really say I like my job. Certain moments just seem to remind me of the things I'm missing in my life. And see what happens? One by one, those people I left behind are coming back to me, those who meant something to me already back then and still do today. And little by little I notice I'm a survivor once again. The sun is shining between the clouds and the wind is slowly blowing those clouds aside. Today, I am tired but I can't stop smiling.

"..Life has a funny way helping you out when you think everything's gone wrong.." :)

Disconnect?

2011-02-23T10:56:00.000+02:00

It seems so pointless to me.. You told me how wonderful it is that I'm taking things the way I do, when I said that we'll be friends again like we used to be: we'd laugh to silly things that others don't get, we'd talk about pretty much everything and you'd be my midnight therapist.. And then.. after telling me that, you broke the connection. No communication at all. Not at all. Not in any way.

Why is that? Were you falling for me? Was I supposed to shed a tear for you? Do I even want to know? Or should I just let this go?

Whatever the reason, I'm missing you, my friend.. my partner in crime.

Time Bomb

2011-02-16T23:45:00.000+02:00

Been feeling tired, like a ragdoll.. waiting for something... Hoping to get a grip of things again. Lack of money and equipment standing between me and my inpiration.. desperately needing a vacation.. as far away as possible. Need to see new faces, meeting new people, craving for sun and warm weather..

At least something makes me smile and feel good.. if only for a moment.

Methods of Mayhem - Time Bomb

History repeating itself

2010-12-15T22:39:00.000+02:00

And while my life went a full circle repeating the same thing it has in history the song below was repeating itself in my head..

Piece of heart

Never a dull moment

2010-12-09T20:44:00.000+02:00

Today Tommy Lee moved in with me..

Naughty or nice

2010-12-07T18:34:00.000+02:00

Different kind of Christmas movie.. ;)
Rare exports

Tattoos & Tequila

2010-12-01T22:10:00.004+02:00

If you didn't know it yet, I absolutely love Mötley Crüe. After saying that I must say that they've given me sort of mixed feelings lately. I just finished reading Vince Neil's book "Tattoos & Tequila - To hell and back with one of rock's most notorious frontmen". Loved it almost as much as I did love "The Dirt" and "Heroin Diaries". But as said.. mixed feelings.

I do get his feelings about that his bandmates let him down when he was in jail and when Skylar was in hospital for the cancer treatments. Plus the Razzle incident. But I do understand his fellow bandmembers as well. To react to the situation correctly, so to say, they should've had their own shit together.. and they sure as hell didn't have their shit together. Besides, Nikki agreed to give an interview for his book and did NOT say one bad thing about Vince.. okey, he spoke mostly about the band and mentioned himself a couple of times too much, but still.. kinda seems like the only one Mr Neil ends up hurting is himself. And he even said in the book that somewhere deep down they surely love each others.. why not let the old thing go, be by-gones..? Why not just simply open his mouth and tell straight to their faces that "hey guys, I love you and shit, but I was hurt by the things that happened" and then move on..? It can't be that hard. Focus on the good things you've had, right?

Yet at the same time I see the resemblance in my own life.. but all can't be equally trustworthy friends, as well all things said and done just can't be forgotten. But at least I try to learn about it.. and then I move on. I've tucked all the shit happened to me to the backpocket of my jeans so to say.. and try actively forget where I put it. :D Some things are easier to forget than others.. and to be honest, some things I don't even want to forget. Because if there ever comes more shittier situations with those same people from the past.. I'll just put my hand to my backpocket and shove that shit to their face. But I'm not looking to get my revenge, I'm not that pitiful person. I'll just keep those things in my mind just in case of emergency, sort of a back-up plan to distract people while I escape.. ;D

But about books.. can't wait for my "Tommyland" to arrive.. :) And I even ordered myself FINALLY my own "The Dirt".. I've already bought it twice but haven't got one for myself.. and while waiting, I'll drown myself to fantasy world created by Paul Hoffman, "The left hand of God".

Hardcore

2010-11-19T23:28:00.000+02:00

I found a song I fell in love with from the very first words. Love this band. And love this song even more. Here are the men of the month.. ;) Dedicate this for now to my little sister who has a moon&star -tattoo on her back that I've designed.. <3

Hardcore Superstar - Moonshine

Go figure..

2010-11-09T22:08:00.002+02:00

Same old plot, some changes in the cast..

Undying wisdom about imagination?

2010-10-27T00:36:00.004+03:00

"Imagination is the main difference. It might be the only difference between us and them (between me and them, between me and you).. Imagination makes an artist. Imagination makes EVERYTHING possible. And a little practise."

Quote by Lindiz (That's me alright!)

I was watching a movie tonight. Had a change of comments in facebook about watching movies. I told I'd rather enjoy a proper action-movie by myself, alone, than have company that can't stop talking or starts laughing during the hottest action-scene saying things like "no way, can't be done"... I think a little believing won't harm any of us.. Imagination DOES make everything possible. So what if it's against the laws of nature that the good-looking hunk is levitating in a TV show.. and someone tells you he's cheating somehow, it's a camera trick or whatever.. Or that Angelina Jolie as Fox in the movie Wanted curves a bullet to a perfect circle.. and then in comes Adam Savage with Mythbusters telling that it's not working like that in real life.. It doesn't necessarily mean that it can't be done. We just haven't figured out yet how to do it.. (Besides, Criss Angel IS HOT!! No matter, levitating or not.)

I could tell you about having a vivid memory where I levitate myself but you'd think of me as a crazy person after that.. guess you might think that already.. and besides, it might just have been a dream that I had as a teenager (a VERY vivid one). Probably I've read a few too many fantasy books with the drow, magicians, swordfights etc.. but I do hope that I'll never, ever lose my imagination or take for granted when someone says that such things are impossible to do.. Because if we lose our imagination like that, if we aren't able to dream about that kind of things, what's left for us really?!? Because it's the dreams, the imagination that drives people into inventing new things, creating new solutions, trying to make this world a better place.. and don't we all want this world to be a better place, for all of us?

I'm feeling really sorry for those people who can't imagine impossible things could happen. I'm sad for those people who don't dare to dream big..

And now I'm heading to my bed dreaming about a kiss.. it's a pretty huge thing for me, I'm not sure if I can imagine such thing to happen.. ;)

Awesome

2010-10-17T16:06:00.000+03:00

Our boys from TDT, The Dagger Thanks have published their first music video.. spot me in it if you can.. ;)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-iX1EfT9x6w

Lips of an angel

2010-10-12T19:12:00.003+03:00

Lately, I've been having these dreams about kissing a certain person. I'm pretty sure (?) it has something to do with the fact, that I kissed that certain person not too many days ago. Of course I could be wrong with that..

The dreams that I have feel so real that I don't ever wanna wake up again. And when I wake up? I want to cry out loud of frustration. Oh why?!? WHYYYYY!!!?? For over a year I felt fine about being single, being by myself.. And just less than an hour ago I was having a nap. And in my dream I could feel his body next to mine, his arms around me.. and while we were lying there in the spoon position I could feel the kiss he gave to the back of my head.. I turned around and held his face with my both hands and kissed him and told him I....

I want to go back to sleep.. ;)

pic from http://www.ponandzi.com/

Oh, how silly of me

2010-09-23T09:40:00.003+03:00

"Let me apologize to begin with, let me apologize for what I'm about to say.." (Linkin Park: In between)

I wanted to share what an amazing person you are, tell others how great friend you've been once again and show to you and to the rest of the world how important you are to me.

Sorry, I'll NEVER do that mistake again.

I'm tired of apologizing for everything I say or do. So I raise my hands up. I'll say no more, I'll do no more. I've given up. I tried being open and spontanious but it backfired every time I did it. I wanted to be more like me (and less like you) but seems that the true me isn't appreciated.

To make sure that I make a total fool out of myself, I intend to share this blog update in my facebook profile. So, for gods' sake, prepare yourself for all the shit you'll have to take because of me opening up. Love you much.

We cannot linger

2010-09-22T20:39:00.000+03:00

Pay TV was available for everyone during the last weekend and I did watch some movies.. One of the movies I watched (again) was Black Hawk Down with Orlando Bloom. So he's my man of the month. You gotta love him. He's just amazing in The Pirates Of Caribbean as Will Turner and in The Lord Of The Ring as Legolas Greenleaf. Legolas has been my favourite from the first time I read the book. I've read it three times from the beginning to the end and it is a book I'll always start over when I feel like reading something and have no new books to read at hand.

Weekend in pictures

2010-09-20T23:24:00.000+03:00

I visited my nephew.. and got lots of hugs and kisses.

New tan

2010-08-31T12:40:00.001+03:00

My both arms look like this after my first volleyball practise.. Doing sports is good?!

Chris nailed it

2010-08-28T13:38:00.000+03:00

Life after you - Daughtry

"..all that I'm after
is a life full of laughter.."

Heavenly gates

2010-08-27T18:12:00.000+03:00

Why does it seem like it's always the ones that are good and kind that suffer the most and are taken away from us way before their time..

Today I updated my status in facebook: "Open up those heavenly gates of Yours wide open because one good and kind is coming way before his time.. :'( "

Wishing for the best, expecting the worst..

"Don't think you are, know you are."

2010-08-25T23:36:00.002+03:00

I had difficulties to deside who is the man of the month.. but since the last two have been musicians I suppose change would do good. And one can't go wrong with Keanu Reeves. And he also is a great musician. Besides I got also to use one of my favourite quotes to the title, from the movie Matrix... Time to kick some ass. :)

And what comes to ass-kicking let me happily tell you that my friends' band Modern Day Citizen went to the finals in the Radio Rock's Rockstarba competition. Yay guys!!! They really kick ass with their music, been humming their song Marrow for a couple of days now.. seems it got stuck in my head.. :)

Boys are back in town

2010-08-22T21:12:00.001+03:00

I planned yesterday I would go to the movies to see The Inception with not-so-dreamy DiCaprio but since I was feeling a bit low I went today instead. And because the 5 o'clock show was sold out, instead of finding the crime scene inside my head, I went to see the absolute action movie, The Expendables. There is nothing that makes me bounce back up like a proper action movie. And this one had everything I needed: big guns, big biceps and big badasses getting kicked the hell out of them. And lousy jokes.

I guess it's not a surprise but the plot was poor, nothing to make you wow. But I found myself liking Jason Statham for the first time, actually thinking that the man is a hunk indeed, especially when he smiles. And ofcourse I liked Jet Li, there's no fight scene he can't handle. But I was disappointed that Mr. Willis wasn't taking any actual part in the action... And Stallone and Rourke... a pair of old hags if I may say. The only good part with Stallone was the scene with Mr. Mayor, Arnold Schwarzenegger. Arnold was walking out from the church and Bruce asked Stallone "what's wrong with him" and Sly replied: "He wants to be a president." I bet there was not a single person in the movie theatre that didn't laugh at that point.

So, I wasn't that impressed of this movie. Hopefully The Inception has a better plot.. although I'm not a huge fan of Leo.. But I guess his movie will be able to twist my crooked mind more than these muscular soldiers from hell. And it gives me something to do while I wait for the new Angelina Jolie movie, Salt, to come out.

If you didn't get it yet.. I absolutely LOVE action movies.

Will it ever be my turn..

2010-08-21T18:57:00.000+03:00

..to be loved by someone? Am I destined to pour my heart out and never get anything in return from anyone? If that's the case, could someone please let me know so that I could dig myself a hole and give up this shitty life..

Beat it

2010-08-19T23:46:00.000+03:00

In less than two weeks I have my first volleyball training after having a break from playing for 16 years. Excited!!!! Thrilled!!!! Pumped up!!! :)

I'm with the band

2010-08-18T22:55:00.000+03:00

I'm reading the book written by Pamela des Barres: I'm with the band - confessions of a groupie. I assumed it would tell openly about the life in backstages, using drugs during the years of all-free-love-and-peace (=60's) and having sex with various, famous musicians.. I've read over 100 pages and I'm not impressed yet. Reading goes on...

Hulabalooooo..

2010-08-18T13:24:00.000+03:00

It's been quite some time from my last blog entry. I've been busy. And tired. Not at all in the writing mode although I've had some ideas of different subjects I could write about. But hey, creative pause might do good, at least now I have plenty to write about. And this is my first update to you all.

As said I've been busy. There has been all kind of events I've taken part to and I suppose those events are a good thing to start these updates with. I'll start with Karuna unplugged. It's a local happening about 30 km from where I live, by the sea in a little village called Karuna. Only Finnish artists. I decided this one pretty quickly, there was only one artist I wanted to see, Jore Marjaranta, but since the price to the event wasn't that bad, I thought that I could go there and keep some company for my friend as well. And I'm happy that I did. I saw one old friend who came to say hi to me. Haven't seen him or heard of him anything after I moved away from Kemiö and we used to spend quite a lot time together. He is one of the boys I used to hang with as a teenager. We were nothing more than friends, like most of those boys were to me. I played football, tennis, basketball with them. Of course I had huge crush on few of them but thing never evolved to that certain point where I would have dated any of them. Well, anyway.. after the last band in the event we headed to Paimio where we were overnight at my friends parents house and headed back home the next day.

The next event was a bit bigger one.. it was in the news all over the world.. guess it already?!? Yup, I was in Sonisphere Finland. In the storm and all. But to tell this correctly to you, I'll start from Friday 6th. I got home from work quite late and headed to a local gig to a bar named Graceland (I've mentioned it there before if you've read my blog pre-Sonisphere.). I wasn't planning to go to Pori on Friday anyway so this was perfect, a night at a bar with a couple of friends and early start the next morning with bus towards Pori. The star of the night was that troubadour I've mentioned many times before. That mysterious troubadour is the lead singer in The Dagger Thanks, Jimi. The night was splendid, we got to hear the new TDT song before they recorded in the studio and we got to hear it acoustic. The song worked as a charm, I listened with tears in my eyes. Me and Jimi hugged when we left the bar our separate ways, he said his usual "C-U-l8r" to which I answered with not so usual "If I'll survive this weekend". "Sure you will", was his answer before he turned his back to me and walked to the car.. Well, as we can now see, Jimi was right, I did survive the weekend with only some wet clothes and feeling disappointed because Mötley Crüe didn't show up and I missed Iron Maiden as well on Sunday because their show was delayed with two hours and had to make it to the last bus so I could show up at work on Monday morning.. Although the disappointment I had a blast that weekend. I got to know 7 guys from Iisalmi who kept me drinking and eating (All I paid for after arriving to Pori on Saturday was a pack of cigarettes.). Sunday I spent with my friend Marissa and her other half Antti, who were kind enough to let me sleep with them in their car. It was close that we didn't have a beer tent on our necks but luckily nothing serious happened to me or any of my friends.

Last weekend I was in two totally different events, one involving music and the other sports. On Friday I was in a small local festival called 2X Openair (2X referring to a place named Kakskerta [=translated as two times]). The Dagger Thanks was playing a gig there as well as some other (less important) bands. Had a blast, once again. I met a friend I lost contact with about a year ago because of several reasons although I don't have anything against her. Surprisingly she said hi to me, I was positively surprised, I expected that the situation would be awkward but it wasn't. Rest of the weekend I spent watching beach volleyball. My friends came to play here in Turku and I even got to touch the ball, first time in sixteen years. Awesome!!!

So, here is the first update. More text will come soon, maybe even today.

They did it again!!!

2010-08-10T21:09:00.000+03:00

New release from The Dagger Thanks.

http://www.mikseri.net/playsong.php?id=434006

Laughing my ass off by myself...

2010-08-06T18:14:00.000+03:00

Today to Graceland, tomorrow Sonisphere Finland. My other foot is already going fast... and I'm sitting only on my other butt cheek... and rock or not, but I'm taking some woolen socks with skulls with me to Sonisphere for a friend who lives about 20-30 minutes car drive from me.. because the chances of us meeting there are way better no matter the 40000 people and 2 hours bus drive... x)

PS. It does take away most of the wow-effect if I reveal that Graceland is a bar in Finland, doesn't it..?!? So let's pretend that I didn't reveal the fact that it is just that, okey?!

What do you mean..

2010-08-05T12:58:00.001+03:00

..by asking am I bored at work?!

Gimme the beat

2010-07-27T20:09:00.000+03:00

Iron Maiden works real well when hitting your head against the wall.. pissed off. Got nothing more to say today.

What you gonna do when they come for you..

2010-07-22T22:36:00.000+03:00

Some of you might remember the late night show C.O.P.S. Well, I'm probably forced to contact police next week. I thought I bought a ticket to Sonisphere festival through a Finnish bargain site where private people can sell their stuff like furniture, clothes, mobile phones, concert tickets and such.. this happends to be my first bad experience of the site. The guy who was selling the ticket haven't sent it to me even though I've already payed for it. He haven't answered to email either. I sent him today one last email, asking do I really have to contact police or will he take care of this thing, either send me the ticket or pay me my money back. I'll give him time over the weekend to response, in the beginning of next week I'll contact police..

I hope I'll at least get my money back.. so annoying to think that I might have to pay for the festival ticket twice... how can some people be so stupid?! Does he really think that I wont act?!? If I'd be a millionare I might let him slide from this.. but I'm not a millionare..

For a moment I even played with the thought of calling a couple of my friends, big, mean-looking bad asses and ask them to take care of this thing.. kick the money out of his ass, so that he'll remember forever not to mess with money of other people..

No surprise..

2010-07-22T22:03:00.000+03:00

I suppose it's no surprise that THE MAN of the month is truely a genious. Loved his gig at Ruisrock, loved Myles Kennedy in the vocals and Mike Monroe visiting the stage.. but most of it all I loved to FEEL that guitar, hear it live.. it actually brought tears to my eyes at the moment.

Riders in the sky

2010-07-18T23:17:00.001+03:00

So went by a weekend with my nephew again. Had a lot to do once again, singing and reading and dancing and just being silly with the little fellow. Went swimming for the first time this summer and visited my cousin in Salo as well. Too bad I'll have to go to work again tomorrow.. could have spent a longer time there with him.

Bought that silly boy two pair of sandals and a Star Wars t-shirt as well as two summer hats. He liked the sandals and hats so much he was wearing them even inside the house. And when he saw Yoda on the t-shirt he started roaring.. apparently everything but dogs and horses roar. Dogs say vuff-vuff and horses say i-ha-haaa.. but Yoda roars. And Spiderman roars. As well as lions, tigers, pigs and rabbits... well, can you tell what rabbit sounds like?!?! I sure haven't heard them make anything but eating noises..

Watch and weap!!

2010-07-12T21:03:00.001+03:00

http://lindiz.pictures.fi/kuvat/Bands/Ruisrock

Only thing that would've made my (yester)day even better is if I would've gotten the plectrum from Slash instead of my friend who doesn't appreciate it as much as I would... But come on, look at those pictures.. with my pocket camera, can you believe it!?!??? I'm amazed of them myself. And hell of a proud of myself. :D

Summer sickness

2010-07-10T22:55:00.000+03:00

I'm still sick. No fever no more, but still trying to cope with the flu and coughing.. Last night coughed so much so long that I threw up. Woke up 2 pm today. But I'm fighting.. Because tomorrow is a special day: Ruisrock and SLASH!!!!!!

Thursday was also perfect. The Dagger Thanks had their first gig in Klubi. What an awesome show they gave us. Got some fantastic photos with that tiny pocket camera of mine. :) And the booze certainly helped medicating my flu... yeah right. But at least it made the day at work fell better. Because I really don't like my job at the moment, this week has been pure hell. But I'm trying to stay positive: at least I get enough money to go to all of the summer festivals I want to go. Sonisphere, I'm coming!! Going to see Mötley Crüe, Alice in Chains, Alice Cooper, Iron Maiden and so on.... And if the job still feels like a burden at the end of September, I'll just tell there will be no more of it after the trial time. It's better off being unemployed than stuck with a job you hate.

Next weekend it'll be a visit to my brother, going to see my nephew. Live and not just through the web cam. But now I'm off to bed, hopefully no puking this night.. Hopefully some sleep for a change.

Not that kind of fever..

2010-07-05T23:40:00.000+03:00

I'm having fever, not a good kind of fever. Terrible flu and this weather doesn't make my being any easier. I love the warm weather but hate to be sick. And like that wasn't enough, I worked 11 hours today.. Still kind of waiting and hoping that someone at work would properly teach the job for me but seems more like the opposite, got to learn it on my my own.

Sucks to feel this sick, especially this week. So much to do this week. Two gigs, a friend coming into town, invitation to a party on Thursday (before the gig), Ruisrock festival.. I still haven't loaded those last photos from my camera to my page... so much to do, so little time and so little energy. Not happy about this situation right now..

Not as planned

2010-06-28T22:44:00.001+03:00

I planned to tell you guys about my new work on last Tuesday.. I didn't have much to tell, so it's been waiting for a better time. I've worked for four days now and I'm quite liking the work. It's a small family company with four people plus me. I work as a secretary, taking care of the paper work in the office. Quite different from the office work I've done before. I get payed twice a month and can't complain about the pay-check. :) First I'll have a two month trial period, we'll see the situation again after that.

Midsummer festivals passed by as well. I stayed at my dads place and took it easy. On Friday I was visiting my aunt, father's sister. We grilled with quite a bunch of people and I drove people home afterwards. My aunt had made some necklaces and bracelets and gave me one of both. The necklace was perfect with my dress. Absolutely love the combination!!

On Saturday we grilled at dads, my brother came with his family to visit and the sun was shining and everything was pretty awesome. Nephew seemed happy as usual and he got a t-shirt made by his aunt (me!!!), once again. He was smacking his mouth when he saw those grilled steaks and ate with good appetite. After eating he wanted grand dad to play some keyboard with him, so I made the coffee while they were making some, ehh, sweet music.. :D After they went back home, we watched the movie Sherlock Holmes with Robert Downey Jr. and Jude Law... A bit disappointed..

Sunday I visited my mum and got some strawberry-cream cake with coffee. After that it was time to get back home. Had good luck with me, a friend drove by with her car when I was walking to the bus stop and so I got a ride home. Watched a movie from my computer before heading to bed and today it was back to work.

Busy week ahead..

Monday warrior

2010-06-21T21:04:00.000+03:00

So, I got the job. Starting tomorrow morning half past 8. More about the job tomorrow.

Quote #3

2010-06-21T15:49:00.000+03:00

"The trouble with resisting temptation

is that you may not get another chance."

(Edwin Chapin)

(pic from http://www.ponandzi.com/)

What a Tripp!!

2010-06-20T19:16:00.003+03:00

So the princess got her prince yesterday.. Thank God, we have Daisy of Love to bring us back to reality.. who cares about some Swedish royalty getting married anyway.. really?!?

Here comes The Man/The Band of the Month..

Tripp Lee

Stop the video at 1:14... ;) Yes!!! It really is!! It is Sinister aka Tripp Lee aka Derrick Tribbett playing bass in Dope!! I sure could stay on this Tripp a little longer!! <3

EDIT: Also be sure to watch Makeshift Romeo and if you really love the man, check band named Twisted Method as well.. <3

Just another score?

2010-06-18T15:45:00.000+03:00

Job interview on Monday.

Me vs. Me

2010-06-14T12:39:00.000+03:00

And so was the weekend gone again and we need to face Monday again. I had a pretty, ehhmmm.. interesting..?? weekend. Occasionally I was feeling like I was in the middle of a war zone when disputing with me, myself and I. My friends in high school used to think that I have two personalities in me, they even named those personalities. Linda was the more serious, a bit sad and gloomy personality. The lively, happy personality with sparks in her eyes was known as Alanis. That's because at that time I looked a lot like her, Alanis Morissette, I mean.

Well, anyway.. about my weekend. Friday was pretty much perfect. As I told I went to a gig to listen that troubadour, friend of mine. Had a blast!! Laughed so much again. And as I got home, I was still feeling happy, couldn't stop smiling. Fell asleep with a smile on my face. Then came Saturday morning... I was feeling totally down.. I was feeling only-lonely.. feeling antisocial.. yet craving for some TLC.. I was almost like a coma patient, sitting in front of my computer just staring blankly to the screen, not able to act.. The KIP-picnic.. I didn't go. I just couldn't get that much out of me, I spent most of the day with my morning gown on.. I had been also invited to a party on Saturday. I fought with myself all day long.. to go, not to go, to go, not to go... I desided to skip it. And then he called. Around 9 pm my phone rang and there was my friend, my voice with a smile, asking if I'm coming or not.. I told that I was feeling antisocial.. He said it's all fine, I'll come visit him some other time. After the call I fought myself again, ten minutes perhaps.. I desided to go after all.. I called him back when I was leaving from my courtyard. Said that I was coming. He said I was welcome.

I arrived there after 20-30 minutes of biking. Inside was about ten-fifteen people. Spent about three hours there with those people, emptied my wine bottle, slowly climbed up from the black hole I created.. left with the same door opening with last guests. Biking home in the pouring rain. I didn't mind, I was feeling fine. Rain is our thing, inside joke in which he calls up a rain everytime I'm on my way home after spending time with him.. I was soaking wet from the rain and sweat when I got home. Took a warm shower and went to bed.

Sunday was one of those in-between days.. not feeling really happy or sad.. just spending time, not feeling anything special. Worked a bit with Photoshop, ate well and watched TV. Went to bed quite late and woke up even later this Monday morning.. I had my morning tea listening Foo Fighters from Spotify. Feeling pretty mellow, a bit melancholic, sort of happy-sad, if you know what I mean.. Waiting for what the day brings..

Time flies by..

2010-06-11T18:12:00.002+03:00

The weeks seem to pass so quickly. I feel like it just was Saturday and I was spending some quality time with my nephew and now it's already Friday.. Where did the time go, did I do anything useful.. I guess not, spent time in the sun, spent time next to computer.. Well, yes I visited two happenings on Wednesday. Haven had open doors, bands playing and such. And I was also present in ArcDia product launch. That's the company where I was practising (and designing the visual look of their marketing material). And now it's Friday. Not just any Friday, my younger brother John (also known as krIItikern or Jompiz) has a birthday today. He's turning 21. Hugs and kisses to him, miss him so much. But as the situation is that he lives in a different country, I guess I'll have celebrate his birthday without him. So today I'm going once again to a gig.. not a surprise?!? Five minute walk and I get to see the troubadour I've mentioned earlier a couple of times. Many of my friends are disappointing me when not showing up there tonight but it's their loss.. besides after not coming to a local gig they don't have any reason to complain during fall/winter the lack of gigs. I refuse to listen them do that.

And today my nephew also got tubes into his ears.. poor baby has had ear infections since December.. hopefully this helps for good. Brave little fellow, auntie Linda sends some extra love to your direction!!! <3

Did I by the way already mention that I was in the promo shoot with TDT.. some idiot (It wasn't me?!?) forgot to turn off the date from the camera.. so now I have about 170 pictures that need a touch of photoshop.. cool.. Not!

Tomorrow we'll have the KIP-picnic(Knit In Public).. it looks like it's going to be rainy so the picnic will be moved indoors into a cafe. And my dear friend is having a party tomorrow as well.. so busy busy busy.

VOTE VOTE VOTE!!!

2010-06-04T23:17:00.000+03:00

Go put some stars for the song!!

http://beta.radiorock.fi/rockstarba?iid=1031

Thanks, The Dagger Thanks

2010-06-03T11:39:00.000+03:00

Awesome day yesterday!!! I got to see the promo shoot of TDT and I can assure you that I had a blast before and during. Laughing my ass off two days in a row, my stomache and cheeks are sore because of all the laughing.. Love those guys!! I was also behind the camera, taking photos of the whole situation, of guys preparing for the shoot and fun stuff like that. Over 200 photos with my little pocket camera in two-three hours. There was almost everything you can imagine around a rockstar: red velvet, golden pillows, finest cognac and champagne, money, poker chips, bling bling and ofcourse those not-at-all-bad-looking rockstars themselves. Not bad I say.

But now, back to normal. Holmes has travelled away again and I need to prepare myself for the next event, weekend with quality time with my nephew. :)

Play it again Sam...

2010-05-31T23:44:00.000+03:00

Now The Dagger Thanks is even in Myspace.. The page is still under construction but as all the good things even this takes some time. I'm already waiting for the next thing these guys publish.. maybe a facebook profile for Holmes..?! HAHAHAHA!!

Modern Day Citizen

2010-05-26T13:08:00.000+03:00

http://www.myspace.com/moderndaycitizen

One more Mr Bassman that is my friend. :)

So NOT my day

2010-05-25T15:47:00.000+03:00

Money is late.

Sewing machine doesn't co-operate.

Just put a bullet to my head, it would make my day perfect.

The hooded man

2010-05-25T12:26:00.000+03:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9B7bfsovT1E

The one and only, true Robin Hood. Loved this serie as a kid and still love it today.

Quote #2

2010-05-21T19:28:00.001+03:00

(pic from http://www.ponandzi.com/)

"One loyal friend

is worth ten thousand relatives."

Not that I wouldn't love my family. :)

Swimming in your ocean

2010-05-21T00:10:00.003+03:00

So he sails away again. And I give him to the sea, not knowing when he'll be back. Hoping the waves soothe his pain and rock him into peaceful sleep at night. I wish that the laughs that we had will stay fresh in his memory and he thinks of me with a smile on his face. I'll tell the sun to give up some warmness to his heart and soul because his heart is too good and too kind to be frozen, and his soul seems so fragile right now. I'll send birds to his vessel so he would know that he's never alone. I'll command the winds to blow those sad thoughts away from his head. And if it's necessary, I'll call in a storm so that he won't have time to think at all. The thunder will be there to give his heart the rhytm to beat with, and lightning will make him blind for his own tears, even those he haven't let out. Finally, I'll plea a soft, overwhelming mist to surround him, giving him the peace of mind he so desperately needs. And I'll ask the stars to watch over him and guide him safely to the dock. Because I'm waiting here.

Loving, being close and caring doesn't cost a thing.

And I care.

A lot.

Quote #1

2010-05-19T11:15:00.000+03:00

"I started with nothing

and I have most of it left."

(pic from http://www.ponandzi.com/)

Headache

2010-05-17T19:10:00.000+03:00

No wonder I have a headache.. Some serious thunderstorm here today.

The Dagger Thanks - Precious toy with joy

2010-05-17T17:17:00.000+03:00

Kicks ass and hard!!!

Like a boiled crab

2010-05-15T21:55:00.001+03:00

So, that was the day. Started out early, ate breakfast at 8am and headed shopping to UFF with my friend. After that I came home, took a little nap and headed out again to Fox for a gig. Before I got out the door the phone rang, got some driving to do after the gig. I didn't mind, it was all good and fun. Sun was shining and I look like I've been sitting in the sun for several hours... Finally came home at 9pm and got some food in me, grilled chicken with couscous and tzatziki sauce. Now I'm going to throw away my clothes and head to bed.

I like it when it's hot. And that includes people and weather.. ;)

Thunder and lightning

2010-05-14T17:53:00.000+03:00

It is hot!! And I love it. Weather is pressuring and I'm waiting for the thunder. Sweeeeeeeet!!! Went with bike today, had no big plans. Stopped by to buy some colour for my hair and stopped at the flee market. Then headed to fabric store nearby and bought two summer-y fabrics so that I can make some summer tops/tunics to myself.

Tomorrow I'll be busy. Early morning. Heading to UFF with my friend Adelheid, hopefully I find some nice things there because they'll have everything with one euro.. some old curtains to a summer dress or something.. And then heading to Fox in the afternoon to listen some real good music once again.

Now I'm going to take a book and head to my bed for hour or two, it's too warm to do anything in my "sauna" (read: appartment). Fan on and some cold water next to the bed. That'll be perfect. Probably start with the tops/tunics this evening. Going to destroy even one of my dresses for that purpose.

FRI-WED

2010-05-13T16:27:00.000+03:00

Today it's Thursday and I'm back in the city. I actually came home yesterday after spending five fabulous days in Perniö, visiting my brother's family. My nephew is a big boy already. He's walking already long walks, he is getting rid of the bottle with the help of his parents and did his first poop to the potty. We had lots to do while I was visiting there, he had to ride the rocking horse, we went twice for a walk with mum and their dog, Väpä, visited a couple of flee markets and ofcourse Reija and I were doing some handicraft. Five days passed by pretty quickly but it was all fun and relaxing. I'm already excited to see what my nephew has learned when I visit them/see him the next time. He is such a fun boy, his parents have been teaching him some really "useful" things.. :D Like when somebody says "Oh my God" the boy puts one hand to his forehead just like if he would remember something. And when you say "Oh no" he raises both of his hands to the sides of his head.. And when he is putting his index finger to his mouth and then quickly taking it out to point upwards.. it means "Belissimo!!" And all the laughing and giggling.. he is such a happy boy. And I think he's gotten something from his aunt to his genes because he loves books and reading.. he can read the same book over and over again, pointing pictures, listening when you tell him what it is and trying to repeat it.. smart boy!!

It looks like the summer is finally on its way to Finland. My studio feels like being in sauna. The sun shines in almost the whole day, I don't have a balcony and both of my windows are to the same direction so no hope from cooling down. Thank goodness I bought the fan last summer, at least I have something to help in the heat. It looks like a beautiful day outside but I'm not interested of going out right now, feels like I have migraine on the way.. it might also be that there is some thunder in the air, it feels a bit pressuring.. But I sure am going to enjoy of the warm weather during the weekend, starting tomorrow. Going to buy a new hair-colour.. I would love to visit my hair stylist Olli in Rock'n'Style but you all probably know how it is when being unemployed... and I need to do something to my hair or else I'll rip it all off soon...

What else.... well yeah, keeping myself busy.. lots of gigs and happenings, like the KIP-happening next month (KIP is shortened from the words Knit In Public). It sounds like fun and meeting the new people is always exciting. Oh right.. now I remembered.. Some of you already might have noticed the new link in my blog there on the right hand side: lindiz.pictures.fi. All photographs I've taken will end up there in the future. Some files are public and some files require a password. If you are interested of some file there but don't have the password, just ask. I may or may not give it to you, depends what pictures you'd like to see and if I'm feeling nice or something totally opposite. :)

That's it today.. got to get away from the computer for a while, sitting next to the window in the sunlight... well you can probably guess that I'm not feeling cool at all.. and it's useless to even think taking a shower before the evening..

Promise - Slash feat. Chris Cornell

2010-05-06T12:01:00.001+03:00

I fell in love with the first listening..

Dial 0700

2010-05-05T09:26:00.002+03:00

The discussion yesterday took a weight off of my shoulders. What a relief that you had heard those things from other sources and I don't have to be the bearer of the bad news. And I still get to keep my secrets and a couple of aces up in my sleeve for the bad day. I prefer it that way, rather being a crazy bitch instead of being totally bitch. ;)

I have known from the beginning that there's a good heart underneath that gorgeous body and it feels good.. no, it feels great, it feels awesome, to know that there's such a smart head on those shoulders as well.

Luv ya.

Just writing..

2010-04-28T14:18:00.000+03:00

I wrote a piece you could call some sort of a poem.. I wrote it in Finnish.

Kahvia ja likaisia astioita.
Tuulen pieksemiä lakanoita.
Pesemättömiä ikkunoita.
Keskeneräisiä asioita.
Ikävöin sinua.

The translation goes somewhat like this..

Coffee and dirty dishes.
Wind-beaten sheets.
Unwashed windows.
Incomplete things.
Missing you.

Ice cream party and The Dagger Thanks

2010-04-26T14:24:00.000+03:00

Not connected to each others at all those two things in the title. But I'm writing about them both anyway in this one post.

Tomorrow I hope to get some free ice cream from Ben & Jerry's. They are arranging a happening tomorrow, in four cities here in Finland, where they hand out free cones of ice cream, their new taste.. Hopefully it's all sunny and warm tomorrow.. :D

And about TDT. They've announced their debut gig. They're performing for the very first time in 25th of July in Lieto, Finland. And on the same day, on that same stage performs also such stars as Robert Lighthouse (USA), Dr. Dave (USA) and Jarkko Martikainen (FIN) just to mention a few.

What now?

2010-04-21T12:51:00.000+03:00

So, the practise is over. Didn't get a job from it. Back to normal unemployment. What should I do next?

Dynamite / Back in business

2010-04-15T11:18:00.003+03:00

Slowly getting back to do things I love the most.. back in music business. Drawing again. And having a huge smile on my face. Ain't it funny how some people still can surprise you after so many years..?!

Keep your eyes open for a new band named The Dagger Thanks, TDT. I'll inform you more later, I guess as soon as boys have some material in myspace.

Fun Friday

2010-04-10T21:32:00.000+03:00

I had a little visitor yesterday. His parents went to movies and I got to play with him for a couple of hours. I found out that I have two huts in my appartment as well as a bouncy-castle (don't know the correct term but you know those "castles" filled with air where kids go jumping)..

Wrecking my journal..

2010-04-07T22:46:00.000+03:00

Sons of anarchy,
daughters of destruction;
this is my anarchist creation..

To create is to destroy

2010-04-05T21:45:00.000+03:00

Got one of the funniest birthday presents from my friend yesterday.. a book named "Wreck this journal", written by Keri Smith.. It's going to be a tough one, even for anarchist like me.. ;) Well, we'll see next year, how I've done with it.. Today, when the actual day is, there isn't going to be anything special, I mean party-like action.. a friend of mine was talking about taking me out for a lunch but that's it.. I had coffee and cake and some great friends over on Sunday. And I was out on Friday. So that'll be party enough for me, at least for now..

Just saying...

2010-03-25T16:16:00.001+02:00

That bitch ruins all the good guys if given the chance..

Overload

2010-03-24T11:46:00.002+02:00

You may have noticed that I haven't been writing lately.. Long story short, I'm just tired. I have plenty of ideas, subjects that I'd love to write about but work/practise is wearing me down. And not only that. Since I don't really get paid (9 euros per day count as nothing) for this practise I constantly worry about money and getting along financially. So yes, I'm tired. And it doesn't show only in my blog. My fridge is pretty much empty all the time, I don't even have the energy to follow those blogs I usually read with great joy. But maybe soon. Maybe already this coming weekend. The sun is shining a little here and there and it seems to help. My iPod is still dead but I ordered (even though I really can't afford to buy anything) a new MP3-player (temporary solution for so long I get enough money for new iPod) so maybe I'll get back to my running exercises and such. Small but meaningful things.

I wish sunny days to all of us!!