Dynamite / Back in business

Slowly getting back to do things I love the most.. back in music business. Drawing again. And having a huge smile on my face. Ain't it funny how some people still can surprise you after so many years..?!

Keep your eyes open for a new band named The Dagger Thanks, TDT. I'll inform you more later, I guess as soon as boys have some material in myspace.

Fun Friday

  

I had a little visitor yesterday. His parents went to movies and I got to play with him for a couple of hours. I found out that I have two huts in my appartment as well as a bouncy-castle (don't know the correct term but you know those "castles" filled with air where kids go jumping)..

Wrecking my journal..

Sons of anarchy,
daughters of destruction;
this is my anarchist creation..

To create is to destroy

Got one of the funniest birthday presents from my friend yesterday.. a book named "Wreck this journal", written by Keri Smith.. It's going to be a tough one, even for anarchist like me.. ;) Well, we'll see next year, how I've done with it.. Today, when the actual day is, there isn't going to be anything special, I mean party-like action.. a friend of mine was talking about taking me out for a lunch but that's it.. I had coffee and cake and some great friends over on Sunday. And I was out on Friday. So that'll be party enough for me, at least for now..

Just saying...

That bitch ruins all the good guys if given the chance..

Overload

You may have noticed that I haven't been writing lately.. Long story short, I'm just tired. I have plenty of ideas, subjects that I'd love to write about but work/practise is wearing me down. And not only that. Since I don't really get paid (9 euros per day count as nothing) for this practise I constantly worry about money and getting along financially. So yes, I'm tired. And it doesn't show only in my blog. My fridge is pretty much empty all the time, I don't even have the energy to follow those blogs I usually read with great joy. But maybe soon. Maybe already this coming weekend. The sun is shining a little here and there and it seems to help. My iPod is still dead but I ordered (even though I really can't afford to buy anything) a new  MP3-player (temporary solution for so long I get enough money for new iPod) so maybe I'll get back to my running exercises and such. Small but meaningful things.

I wish sunny days to all of us!!

Stress level high/breaking down

Overwhelming stress is pushing me down, towards the ground.. Feel like I can't take it for long.. tired, mentally, just want to cry. Out of money, can't pay my bills.. reposessors will probably soon be knocking behind my door.. work/practice has killer schedules and it's taking over my thoughts even on free time..  my back and my hands are killing me, hurts like hell.. my iPod broke down and I can't live without my music.. can't sleep because worrying all the time.. even breathing is getting harder day by day..

Life is simply too hard at the moment..how much one can take, how much one have to suffer..??

I know I can't take this much longer.. I need help. I need a hug. I need a job that gives me paychecks that pays my bills. I need that special someone. I need to get out of this shit. I need a break.. before I break.