Isn't it ironic?

About two years ago my life seemed to be nothing but a huge mess. I was nearly breaking down, almost felt like having a burn-out. I made quite a big sacrifice back then and left a bunch of people behind, some of them really important to me and some who didn't mean a thing to me at the end of the day. And I survived, I got back on my feet and took a grip of my life again.

Lately, I've felt tired and fed up again. To put it nicely, I can't really say I like my job. Certain moments just seem to remind me of the things I'm missing in my life. And see what happens? One by one, those people I left behind are coming back to me, those who meant something to me already back then and still do today. And little by little I notice I'm a survivor once again. The sun is shining between the clouds and the wind is slowly blowing those clouds aside. Today, I am tired but I can't stop smiling.

"..Life has a funny way helping you out when you think everything's gone wrong.." :)

Disconnect?

It seems so pointless to me.. You told me how wonderful it is that I'm taking things the way I do, when I said that we'll be friends again like we used to be: we'd laugh to silly things that others don't get, we'd talk about pretty much everything and you'd be my midnight therapist.. And then.. after telling me that, you broke the connection. No communication at all. Not at all. Not in any way.

Why is that? Were you falling for me? Was I supposed to shed a tear for you? Do I even want to know? Or should I just let this go?

Whatever the reason, I'm missing you, my friend.. my partner in crime.

Time Bomb

Been feeling tired, like a ragdoll.. waiting for something... Hoping to get a grip of things again. Lack of money and equipment standing between me and my inpiration.. desperately needing a vacation.. as far away as possible. Need to see new faces, meeting new people, craving for sun and warm weather..

At least something makes me smile and feel good.. if only for a moment.

Methods of Mayhem - Time Bomb