Old stuff, new year..

I guess what I've been feeling today could be called 'being sentimental'.. You remember those warm summer pictures I posted earlier this year..? The ones taken from my living room window, all sunny, blue sky and green trees and all that.. Well, this is what the view looks like now..

Almost as if this would be totally different place.. But I got sentimental otherwise as well. I found a new interesting blog yesterday and there was text and pictures about old and useful things. The writer of that blog mentioned in her texts that she had found a book by Eeva Haavisto, Tyttöjen käsityöt (Handicraft for girls, from year 1945) from the flee market. Well, I have that same book here at home. I found it from my mum's storage room. There was an accident some time back, a water pipe had failed and a lot of stuff was lost. My old story books and old magazines, stuff like that.. Not necessarily that useful but something to bring up memories from childhood etc. Anyway, this fall I was going through what there was left, things that weren't ruined by the water and there was this book in perfect condition. Today I realized that even though I do a lot handicraft, this is the only book I own about the subject. I have books about music, how to draw -books, calligraphy -books but nothing about making clothes, nothing about fashion, knitting, making your own jewellery etc..

In that same blog was pictures about some old boxes, cans and jars of all kinds. She wrote how she still uses those boxes and cans to store all kinds of small things. I remembered right then and there that I have couple old jars as well. I can't even remember how long I've had them. They've been waiting for me to come up with something to store in them. Well, I still don't know what I could put in them but I took them down from the top shelf in the kitchen, took off the dust and took some pictures of them, together with the book.. Maybe I'll come up with something now, when those jars are constantly in sight reminding me of their existence..

The white and blue jar on the right is meant for coffee. I used it for that when I was still studying but I think it gave a bit funny taste to the coffee even though I kept the coffee in it's own package and put it like that to the jar.. maybe it was just my imagination.. The other jar I remember I've found somewhere, maybe from my grandmother's attic..?! Anyway, I like it very much, it's Japanese style. And I think it doesn't matter at all that the jar has some rust on it, it only gives character to it. I remember I washed it after finding and that took most of the rust and dust off of it, and what was left only shows that it's not from today, that it's older, maybe even older than.. well, I guess not, but who knows really.. Not only old stuff in those pictures though. The table cloth I bought from sale with 4, 90 euros. I even got one similar with lime green colour. The black one goes during the autumn-winter season and the lime I thought would be perfect for spring and summer season. I even bought matching seat covers for my chairs..

With the last picture with some candles, bowl filled with fruit and a glass of some real good wine I want to wish all of you a happier new year.

Bite me

So, that was the Christmas this year. Most of the presents have been given forward and I even got some for myself. I came home yesterday and my sister went back to Sweden. Christmas was quite fun. Not too much fuzz over things, we spent lots of time together and especially with nephew. Little man had a flu but despite of it he kept on smiling and laughing. And kissing. The little charmer has learned to give wet kisses spiced with a little tongue.. :) I got so many kisses from him and you can probably guess the end result.. I have the flu now. I think the little cutie had decided to make sure that at least one of his aunts get the flu from him and so he even bit me.. You know little kids.. they have that phase when everything must be tested with mouth and when they get their first teeth they keep on biting everything. My nephew has already 6 teeth, small, white and beautiful. And hard!! I was lying on my side on the floor one evening and he was climbing all around me, trying to get up on his feet and then again sitting, climbing again and... you get the point. I've had already earlier the talk with the little man that he's not supposed to eat aunts clothes or put aunts fingers in his mouth.. And what does that little man do.. bit me next to my shoulder. Through two shirts he left his toothmark on his aunt. And yes, it did hurt pretty much.. But no bigger harm done, I guess he just wanted to mark me as his aunt so that nobody steals me. :D

Today was the first day of sale after Christmas. For me it was also the last day of sale. Bought so much textiles that I don't have to worry about decorating my appartment at least for a year. Got some cushions to my chairs, sheets to my bed, table cloths for both spring-summer and fall-winter seasons and some towels. I also found four shirts and one board game. Spent a lot of money but now I don't have to buy anything for quite some time.

It's good to be home again.. Resting for a while before getting busy again. Hopefully new year will bring me a new job and all other good things. And to you, too, all the best.

White Christmas

I've been in Finland now for three whole days. We arrived on Saturday evening with my sister, our father came to pick us up. The trip was ok, we got snow in Sweden too while I was visiting there. We went out on Wednesday evening with couple of my sister's friends and had some fun dancing and drinking. The only disappointment on my journey was that I didn't find anything to buy for myself. I was hoping I'd find something unique that can't be found from Finland but didn't really find anything that interesting. But luckily I found pretty good Christmas presents from Sweden so at least that is taken care of. We were planning to take a walk around in the city to see those light installations but it never took place. It got so cold and since my sister had been sick just before I went there so I guess it wouldn't have been a good idea to go out to the cold weather. Although in some way it's a pity that we didn't, I didn't really get any pictures taken from the city.

Now we've been spending time here, my brother visited us on Sunday with nephew. The poor little thing is having a cold but still he was up to play and socialize with us. That little cutie!! I sent most of the Christmas presents with my brother to their place, so we don't have to carry that much when we go there. We are going to spend Christmas there. My younger brother had already opened his presents and seemed to be happy of them. He is spending Christmas alone, probably working so we allow him to open his presents earlier.. it wasn't the meaning but what is done is done. :) Yesterday I spent some time outside shoveling snow and later in the evening headed to the sauna. It's so nice to get into the warm sauna when it's -15 degrees outside.

Last night we watched the Swedish movie "Men who hate women" (Män som hatar kvinnor). It was pretty good movie. During the movie I knitted a wrist warmer to my father. Getting old doesn't work for his benefit. Cold weather brings all kind of aches.. But anyway, the evening was alright. I still need to do one more wrist warmer for him, for the other hand. I'll do it after I've finished a couple of Christmas projects I have left to do.

Today me and my sister probably head to our brother. They are all having a flu with fever and help could be used over there. We'll get there and bake some ginger bread cookies, hope it helps to the flu a bit.. ;) Everything good usually does. At the moment I am sitting alone here. My father, his wife and my sister went downtown. Father and sister are going to visit the graveyard while father's wife takes care of other things. They'll visit my grandfather's and step-sister's grave, maybe leave a candle or something there. I haven't visited the graveyard since last Christmas. I believe that one can remember those people otherwise as well.. I believe they live in our hearts instead of the graveyard. Don't get me wrong, I actually like graveyards, they have that soothing, calming feeling but I think those people buried there would appreciate more if we remember the happy times in our hearts, remember them as they were while they were living. In the graveyard is only headstones, their spirit lives on in other places.

Anyway, before getting too deep into the subject, I'll end this writing by wishing you all MERRY CHRISTMAS! May you all enjoy of it with your nearest and dearest and find yourself some peace of body, mind and soul.

Linköping, Sweden

So, I've been at my sister's place two days. Yesterday sister was at school the morning and when she came home we ordered some pizza via internet. That was so good!! :) Then later in the evening we took a little walk in the city. We met a friend of hers and sat in McDonalds for a while. Today we went Christmas shopping to Tornby. Found pretty nice stuff from there. Now we've been sitting inside and packed those presents we bought. We ate in a taco place, sister chose taco buffet and I took chicken sticks with fries. It was all good. With full stomaches it was good to go buy some food.. ;)

It's been snowing all day long here and it looks so nice outside. Hopefully the snow stays on the ground. We were talking about taking a walk some evening around in the city, they have put up a light show some sort of we're going to go see. Hopefully I'll remember to take my camera with me then. And hopefully I get some good photos too. Tomorrow we are going out with my sister's ex and their friend who we saw yesterday. It should be fun as well.

The picture below I took few days before I came here. It seems it's been cold in Finland since I left there. Been reading from Facebook friends updating their status saying that it's minus 15 celcius there. It hasn't been that cold here even though it has been pretty cold here as well but some glogg (mulled wine) warms nicely both body and soul. We're still going to go shop to the city some presents this week because I'm still short of two presents and I promised for my father to look if I'd find something for my nephew that they could then pay back for me. All in all, it's been very nice so far.

Burn money burn..

Went Christmas shopping today... Found two presents, one to my sister and one to my brother.. Bought myself something too. New shoes. They were on sale, minus 70 percent. The original price was 99,90 euros, I paid only 29,95.. I'm pretty proud of myself for making such a good deal!!! :D

I also bought a back bag for my laptop. I would've wanted a black one but they didn't have any and only red ones were left. But I guess it's alright, my closet is mainly black and red, so no big harm done there.. Tomorrow I'll go to post office because I forgot to do it today (and I had so much stuff to carry that it would have been almost impossible to take one more bag along). So tomorrow I'll get my new sports/outwear from H&M, those I told you about earlier..

I am waiting for the weekend so much. On Friday I'll get a new hair-do. Anxious to see what Olli has come up with. On Saturday I'll get my first Christmas present when me and my friend Eija are going to Sebastian "Skid Row" Bach concert. Eija bought me the ticket, so the concert is my first Christmas present. :) And then finally on Sunday.. I'll start my boat trip from Finland and I will end up to my sister's place in Sweden. Going to stay there almost a week. It will be so much fun!! I'm also hoping to find some Christmas presents from there, something special for some special people. :)

Sunny winter

As promised here is the picture of the two fabrics I bought yesterday. I think the yellow still isn't bright enough in this picture but, oh well.. I like the picture otherwise.

Today I planned to have a cleaning day. But it is way too beautiful weather so I think that I am first going to take a walk outside and I came also up with an idea that I'll stop by at the flee market here near by. I've been reading one new blog (new to me) Villapata kiehuu and from there came the idea to this excursion to flee market. I'm hoping to find old handicraft magazines. :) And if I don't, I know there will be huge piles of old LP-records which are always welcome if we talk about good music..

Have a nice day, I'm out for now.

Shop 'til you drop

I went to downtown today, Christmas shopping in my mind. I didn't actually buy that much but I did gather a lot of ideas. So when I get my tax return I'm ready. I bought one present today though. Couldn't just walk by. It is for my nephew, it was for sale, so I had to. It is actually funny, I found today at least ten different things I could have bought for him. :) I also visited Eurokangas (fabric store) and I had a plan to buy a couple of zippers.. Well.. I didn't buy any zippers from there. But I bought two different fabrics. I'll add a picture of them in the morning when there is natural light. I already tried to take a photo of them but the one with yellow wasn't as bright in the picture as it really is. I just fell in love with it. And usually I'm not a huge fan of yellow in clothing, accessories maybe.. but this fabric just caught my eye. Bright yellow fabric with big, black stars on it. And the other fabric was almost as awesome. Don't know yet what I'll do of those fabrics but I'm sure I will come up with something.

Even though I didn't buy that much I spent almost four hours wandering around in stores. Day well spent?! Could have probably done something more useful but there's always tomorrow, right.. :) Soon it is time for me to go to bed and get some sleep. I've been sleeping almost to noon for a couple of days now and stayed up almost 'til 4 am, need to change the daily rhytm back to normal again..

Those of you who still haven't left a comment to my project blog but are following it (or this), now would be the best time to leave a comment or two to that project blog. As I wrote earlier, I started a Christmas calendar there and decided to have a lottery between those people who leave in a comment before Christmas. The price will be woolen socks made by me, delivery probably some time during January. So hurry up, you might be the lucky one!!! And to clarify, they don't have to have skulls on them if it isn't your thing, I can do something else if you so wish.

Black Christmas

Since the NaNo ends tonight at midnight and I have no way of making it to the 50K words I've already given up. I did good though, in my own opinion. And now I am looking forward already. Tomorrow I'll start a new project. No, not writing!! I decided to make some sort of Christmas calendar to my project blog (The link is there on the right, the same skull and the hat that are there above). I make my best to send a picture to my project blog every day until it's Christmas. 24 pictures. The pictures I am going to send are giving a hint of those Christmas presents I've done myself. They won't show what the presents are but they give a hint of colours, subjects and maybe even who is going to get them. At the end of December, right after Christmas I'll change the pictures so that they will show what I've really done. I believe this is going to be interesting and I guess it is a way for me to get into the Christmas spirit as well.

So, make sure you remember to "open" this Christmas calendar every day. Hope you will have fun trying to figure out who gets what. And please, feel free to comment or send in your guess what are these presents. :)

Lost

Strange. I have thought all the time that I have booked my boat trip to a evening boat on the December 13th. Today I got e-mail from the company that the booking is for morning boat. Have I lost something here..? On the other hand it is better that the leaving is on Sunday morning, that way I will have one day more to spend in Sweden. And besides, if I will now go and change the booking I would have to pay almost 40 euros more because there is no more similar cabin available on the evening boat. But it is going to be a rough wake up on Sunday. The boat starts 8.45 am and I have that Sebastian "Skid Row" Bach concert the evening before. So thank god for the cabin!! I get to sleep all day if I want to. But I guess I won't.

I was thinking.. I've been writing my NaNo furiously these couple of days. It looks like I won't make the 50 000 words. But I've written more to this one project than to any other project ever before. Anyway, there has been a lot of eating in this novel of mine.. And I was thinking that I should eat something special on my boat trip.. Try something new. And when it comes to eating we were talking/writing with my sister that since my brother and his wife aren't going to stress and arrange anything big for this Christmas that maybe we should be thinking of something. My sister said that she would like to see our nephew's first Christmas party and she would like to make ginger bread cookies. :) When surfing the internet yesterday even I started to search for some recipes for different Christmas foods. Maybe we will arrange something slightly different.. Well, I guess we'll see that then. It will be fun anyway.

It is the first advent today. So I'll guess I will light one candle later tonight. Soon we are in December. Wish it would snow for Christmas.. I'm not feeling the Christmas yet..

A little Christmas wish list in pictures

Ps. I prefer my books in English, shoes in size 38 and shirts in size medium. ;)

Numb3rs

Sometimes number one is better than two. And sometimes number two is better than one. It is little over two weeks before my trip to my sister, to Sweden. In this case two is pretty bad. She's already waiting for me and I can barely wait to start the trip. I have almost already packed my bag.. Well, not really but I am wondering what I need to take with me, do I take my laptop, which bag... and so on, you get the picture. But now I am alone here. And my sister is alone there. And that's not so good either when we're both anxious to see each other. It is also little over two weeks before I get to go out with my friend and see Sebastian Bach from Skid Row playing live. That is a good number two. Not too early and suitably just a night before my trip to Sweden.

It is little over a week before I see my nephew again. That is quite good, I think that week will go fast. But I'll only have one night and two days with him. Not good. There is less than one week for me to finish my NaNo. I am way behind, so that is bad. But after one week it is all over, I don't have to stress about it in anyway, so that's a good thing after all. There is one week and I get to see two of my favourite bands performing live (Hardcore Superstar and Crashdïet). And little over a week and I get to see a friend of mine to play solo in a bar.

There is one month to Christmas. That is good, I still have time to make Christmas present. But that one month will probably go way too fast and I might end up noticing one night before Christmas that I haven't done all I planned. But then there is number three which is the number of already done presents. That number three is a good one. There is also number five that equals the ready ideas (some of them already started) for presents. But unfortunately there is also the number zero. That is the amount of those bought presents I have in storage.

Where does all this lead us, you may ask.. Well, just to realizing that there isn't good or bad numbers.. at least I think that is what this is taking us to.. But what do I really know, my guess is probably as good as yours.. and it is only one of many in this world.. ;)

Ps. Number 12 is also pretty good. That many hours away is a coffee break I'm going to have with my dad. :)

This must be heaven..

Shock is finally delivering goods to Finland!!!

Suppose this is early christmas for me.

Happy happy joy joy!!

Money comes, money goes..

Yesterday was the first time in ages I went out for a walk. I walked an hour and felt pretty damn good when I got back home. So I decided to do it again today, now try a little jogging as well because it felt yesterday that I have more to give when it comes to speed and stamina. So the training continues. And so it happened that I made quite big online order.. It was dripping rain last night, so I came to conclusion that I need a decent jacket for my running hobby this fall/winter. And new sportpants, but only because they were on sale.. And since I' m going to look stunning after all this running, of course I ordered a couple of new shirts as well. They were also in sale. The thing is that actually I don't have the money for these clothes. But luckily the products I ordered weren't all available right away, so I decided to wait until they all are and get the package first then. So waiting for a week 50. And waiting for my tax refund. So it's all taken care of. :)

Today I went down town for a quick visit. I saw a commercial last night that there would be Christmas opening in the shopping centre.. So I thought there would actually be something to see.. Maybe it was just me who was impatient or there wasn't any proper program.. However, it was alright to get out from home and see some people. I even found new headphones for my iPod. Now I'm just wondering if I should reset my iPod because it isn't working as it should. It plays the music alright but the turning-on is a bit complicated.. I'd love to buy me a new iPod but THAT I can't afford. Anyway, when it comes to music, I was glad that I didn't hear one Christmas carol while at the shopping centre.

I've had the habit for the past few years, that I'll buy myself a Christmas present from my tax refund. This year I haven't come up with any idea what to buy. I don't have ideas even for what I wish for Christmas. Or what to buy for others. I've made some small presents but the idea was that those would only complete and personalize the actual presents. The problem with me isn't so much what to buy for me since I'm a sucker for music and books. The problem is that I'm pretty picky with what I read or listen. Like this one Christmas present I got... I also like to watch movies on my sparetime. And I do like Jack Black (among many others). But I don't like Nacho Libre, one of Jack Black's movies. I'm not a huge fan of stupid comedy movies. I basically hate every single one of Steve Martin characters. And don't even try to make me watch Mr. Bean.. When I mentioned that I like Jack Black I was referring to films like High Fidelity, School of Rock, KungFu Panda, Waterworld... I like the intelligent Jack Black, with the high class humour.. Not Jack Black in turquoise thights.

I am not only picky when it comes to movies, music or books. It is a problem when watching tv as well. Well, it's not a problem when I am alone at home 'cause then I can watch whatever I want. But for example, I don't follow (probably never really have..) any Finnish tv-series.. I can count those Finnish movies I like with one hand... I am a fan of action movies. I also like fantasy A LOT. And that goes with my books as well.. Maybe I should make a list of books, to my blog, that are missing from my shelf.. Just in case if someone wants to get me present that is truely appreciated... Hmm, I suppose that's not a bad idea..

Anyway, should maybe do something useful for a change.. L8r allig8r!

Weekend and wedding

I have been lazy and haven't updated my blog of the weekend. But I'll do it now. As I wrote before, I started my journey on Wednesday, went to my dad. I spent there few days, knitting and writing, mostly. On Saturday it was time for celebration. I was invited to a party by my cousin. Her little daughter was going to get name that day. What the invitation didn't tell was that there was going to be a wedding as well. I knew about it though and I suppose that it was no surprise to any of the guests. So my cousin got married and their little girl got a beautiful name, Emma Matilda.

My first plan was to get home on Saturday. Instead, I ended up to my brother's place. I spent one night there and came home on Sunday. So I got to see my nephew. He is growing so fast. And how he keep smiling. Probably the happiest child I have ever known. His mother said once again that we speak the same language which I think is funny. But I guess we kinda do. :)

Today I got a phone call from my brother. I get to be a babysitter for my nephew in the start of December. Wohooo!!!!

Busy as a.. bulldog?!

Haven't been writing to my blog for a while. Been struggling with my NaNo and been busy other wise as well. I'm a bit behind with my writings but it's coming all together. Besides I've already written more to one project than ever before, so I feel like a winner already. But I'm not done yet with the novel, I've got still some ideas left so it might well end up reaching the final goal of NaNo, 50 000 words.

Writing isn't all I've done lately. I've started to create some christmas presents already. Nothing big. More like something small and personal to add to go with the actual christmas presents that I'll buy. Too bad that I can't reveal them in my project blog just yet. I like surprises and I like to offer them to others as well. I've had so many christmas in my past that I've already known most of what I'll get from Santa so at least I'm trying to keep the secret when it comes to presents I'm going to give. I am usually the one who is wrapping the presents to christmas paper but I think it's pretty lame that I've wrapped presents that were coming to me.

Yesterday they started to renovate the elevator in our house. It's was pure hell to sit home the whole day. It appears to be that our house is full of elephants. The whole eight storeys. And not just that people walk heavily. Now they seem to get to the corridor in packs and they talk loudly all the way to the eight floor. It is nice that neighbours are friendly but I don't necessarily want to hear them in my own appartment.. And the renovating team. Don't get me started here. I'm unemployed. I don't have to wake up before noon if I don't feel like it. But guess what. These guys start their work at seven and the noise starts half past seven at the latest. So today I went out, shopping. So I wouldn't have to listen to it. What a bliss!! Not did I only avoid the noise but I bought myself a new bag and pj's for my nephew. I like the pj's I bought for him, there's a feisty bulldog on the shirt. And I absolutely LOVE my new bag. It is spacious yet it doesn't seem big. It is simple but there still is a catch. It is useful, fits my style and wasn't too expensive. Win-win for me, I would say!! :D

Tomorrow I'll be heading to Kemiö once again. Going to visit my dad because Sunday was father's day. I'll stay there until Saturday and then I'll go to Salo to visit my cousin with my mum. My cousin's daughter is getting her name on Saturday so I will be seeing other relatives as well. I heard a rumour that there would be also an other reason for celebration but before that is confirmed I won't write about it. Maybe I'll tell you all on Sunday when I'm back home again.

Microwave sushi..?!

The first day of NaNo is soon over. I´ve done pretty well. I´m over the daily minimum, 1667 words and I am planning to keep writing still a couple of hours.. I haven´t been writing all day long but instead I´ve watched TV every now and then and done much of other things as well. At first it felt like it isn´t coming out of my head. I felt I really struggled at 300 words.. but then suddenly I wrote sentence or two and the story started to develop as I expected. And suddenly I had written 1000 words. I´m trusting to my strategy. Many have said that the second week is hardest. Well, I hope that it won´t be that for me. I´ll take it slowly, making my daily goals instead of pouring everything out in the couple of first days. That way the story has time to develop, the plot doesn´t run away from my hands and I should find the right way to put things and not just write total crap. First day I´ve written 1720 words. Not bad I think.

But I don´t have only NaNo news to tell. I visited a friend of mine yesterday. She invited me to eat. I felt a bit sick in the morning but after some pain killers and food I felt much better. Took a little nap and started to wait for the midnight. Watched a Bruce Willis movie "Hudson Hawk" from TV and realized I´ve seen it before. As well as the Willis-movie tonight, "Hostage". Stayed up and followed the forums and groups around NaNo. Decided not to start writing in the middle of the night. Instead I went to bed and woke up pretty early. At least early for me. Watched TV, every-Sunday-Futurama-cannot-miss.. :D But after Futurama I started writing. Went to local store.. took my laptop to bed. Writing a little, some TV and knitting, writing more, food, movie. And now writing my blog. Nothing special.

Oh yeah.. caught my ear yesterday when watching "Hudson Hawk".. they mentioned microwave sushi.. wonder what that´s like.. Yes, sushi is supposed to be raw fish.. but does something special happen to it if you put it in to a microwave..?! Does it explode? :D If someone has tried this or is curious enough to try it after reading this, please tell me the result.. pretty please..

Book cover

Tonight I designed a book cover for my NaNoWriMo project with the help of my little sister. It can be seen here.

Frustrated

I can´t wait NanoWriMo to begin... I have my plot, main characters, the place, the who, the what, the when and where.. My novel doesn´t have a name yet but it´s the smallest part of my problems right now.. Because I´m starting to doubt my idea. It´s a good story, I know it. But I´ve been going through NaNo forums and it seems like everybody is writing more or less fantasy.. and it seems like nobody gets caught to my idea. I know I am late when asking a mentor and that there still is time, four days, before NaNo officially starts.. but I´m getting nervous.. actually so nervous that I haven´t yet translated my CV to English and I need it tomorrow!! I´ve planned going to trade fair where I might find my new employer. Job interview has never been easier to get.. and I haven´t prepared myself.. well, I´ll guess I´ll stay up late even tonight.

Guess I´ll watch Sandhogs and get to the translation after that...

Edit: I came up with two names.. thanks to my little brother John for assistance.. I chose the name "Pocket full of stars".

Something going on?!

I woke up nearly two hours ago. I´ve been turning around in my bed, listening all the noise people make when the building is slowly waking up. I tried to fall asleep again but not a chance. I must be getting sick, why else would I wake up this early..

Well anyway, as said I was lying in my bed and listening. Heard all kind of stuff. One neighbour singing something or at least trying to sing. It sounded as annoying as the piano upstairs. I don´t think the owner of that piano have played one song from the beginning to its end. I heard alarm clock wake someone up at seven. Now it´s 8.40 a.m. and someone is already using vacuum cleaner upstairs.

But I´m kind of enjoying this. I had the time to think while I was still in bed. I believe I came up with an idea what to write when participating NaNoWriMo and I think that´s a good thing. I believe now I finally dare to sign up. But first I think I´ll have a cup of tea and something to eat with it because I´m dying of hunger.

Be my penguin?

Started my morning by listening some music from YouTube and in some point came to this video. So I ended up surfing and searching for Pon and Zi -pictures. They are absolutely adorable!!! (You´ll find the link under title "These I follow".)

That´s about all I have to tell you about my day. I´ve been such a lazy ass lately.. surfing the net, watching TV, lying on the bed, eating, sleeping.. basically haven´t done anything useful.. Feels like I´ve lost my inspiration.. I have alot of ideas and I want to do stuff.. I just don´t get anything started. Guess I need some serious ass-kicking. :) Any volunteers?!?

all rights Jeff Thomas/Azuzephre

And today came christmas..

Today I got my first christmas present. My friend bought me a ticket to Sebastian "Skid Row" Bach concert in December. Jeeeiiii!!!

Explanation

Today I feel like I need to explain my previous blog entry. I was watching a movie: The fast and the furious -Tokio drift and there they spoke about that feeling they get while driving fast with their cars. "It feels like..", he starts. And she ends the sentence:"It feels like there´s no past or future." I liked what I heard. Because it would be nice if one could live like that. Not having the weight on your shoulders of things happened in your past. Or forced to plan ahead for the future. It would be more than perfect to live like there´s no tomorrow, live now, this moment. But unfortunately some of us aren´t born under the lucky stars. Some of us have to plan their lives ahead, at least so much that you know your bills get paid in time, where you get money for food, that you have a place to live and sleep..

If I could live totally without worries I would take the money on my account and take the first flight to one of my best friends. He is hanging around somewhere in Asia at the moment. I would take a couple of drinks under the palm trees, enjoy the warm weather and just relax, have fun. I would give my friend a hug.. or ten, because I really miss him and his positivity. I miss his midnight text messages in my phone and the phone calls in 4 or 6 am.. "Where are you, you´re not in the bar?! Are you getting old?!?" or "I´m walking home from the bar and had nothing else to do, so I called you." He knew I had my phone next to my bed, sounds on and everything. He knew I would answer at all times.

Especially these dark, lonely nights at home make me wish I were someplace else. Somewhere in the sun, travelling with no other worries than where to go next. But still I sit here, knit those woolen socks I´m soon starting to hate (at least occasionally) and wait for some miracle to happen. A miracle that would take away all of my worries and finally give me the chance to do all the things I´ve been dreaming of..

Don´t you wish sometimes..

..that there´s no past or future.

It´s been awhile

It´s been awhile from my last writing in here. I´ve been kind of busy. Busy thinking, feeling and doing everything else. I´ve had problems concentrating to writing.. or sitting at one place. And yet I´ve been so lazy. I´ve done nothing really. Except knitting. And reading. And watching TV. But now I thought I´d give it a try.. I´ll try to sit still long enough to publish this post..

So, where should I start... Maybe the first day of this month.. Thursday. I took off from my appartment quite early, headed towards Salo. I had agreed to meet my cousin and my brothers wife and friend there and continue the trip with them to my brothers place for a couple of days. The reason why we met in Salo was simple. Otto, son of my cousin, wanted to get to a carousel. And so we walked to market fair. And Otto got to a carousel. A couple carousels. Here is a picture of him in one of them.

The day was quite nice, sun was shining and yet it was cold, it wasn´t too cold. Even my nephew, that cute little thing, was so brave and interested about everything around him, that he missed a couple of naps and a couple of meals too.. but boy, was he hungry and tired when we got home. :)

So, I spent couple of days at my brothers place, had nice time just playing cards, eating well, talking, amusing that little sugar.. I can´t really say that my friends tend to sit evenings at my place (or vice versa) playing cards and just.. relax. Can you believe that even though I had my laptop with me, I took it from my bag for the first time on the fourth day of my journey...!!!

On Saturday I took my brothers car and my nephew and we went to my dads. Brother wanted to have some private time (sleeping) with his wife so we took off with the little boy. Spent the Saturday at my dads. The little fellow is growing so fast. Seemed he had some growing pain in his legs ´cause he wouldn´t sleep until I massaged his legs so that he calmed down. Or he´s getting more teeth.. but he fell asleep after I massaged his legs so...

On Sunday I visited my mum. Packed the car full of stuff, then drove back to dads, packed the boy and his stuff into the car and headed back to my brothers. We went through all the stuff I brought from my mum and on Monday I came back home to my own appartment. And since then I´ve basically done nothing...

Lately I´ve felt I should be somewhere else, doing something else.. I´ve been dreaming about travelling, maybe to London or Paris, all around in Italy.. maybe even work abroad. But as always it is a question about money. In December I´ll get my tax return, but is it enough.. I do have rent to pay, student loan and all the other stuff... will there be anything left for travelling..? At least for a weekend in London.. or a day in Stockholm?? Anything would be nice change at the moment.. I feel like I don´t belong here, I´m feeling restless.. yet I wouldn´t want to stay away too long and miss to see that little cutie to grow, learn to talk and walk.. It´s hard you know, wanting to be the best aunt ever... ;)

The Invisible Man

I didn´t have my TV on last night. There was nothing interesting enough. Instead I sat here next to my computer and watched The Invisible Man from YouTube. Not the old one but the one with Vincent Ventresca as Darien Fawkes. Didn´t really remember how much I love that serie.. and how good it was!!!! I´m going to continue watching it today at some point.

It got me thinking though.. What would I do if I was invisible..?! I would most certainly sneak into airplanes and travel around the world. Probably "borrow" some money from bank. Make a mess in a couple of places where I´ve worked.. tease a few people by whispering to their ears certain truths.. Nothing that exciting or bad. Illegal perhaps, but.. A person might even get away with murder if being invisible.. but would I do it, if it was a real possibility..?? I don´t know for sure.. maybe..

Lately I´ve been trying to be invisible for one person. I´ve been irritated at this person because whenever I get online that person is there right away to make a comment, tell something I couldn´t care less at the moment. Especially it irritates me in the mornings. I´m not a morning person. When I put my laptop on in the mornings I barely have opened my eyes!! Feels a bit like this person is violating my privacy, breaking into my area.. I don´t have the need to be writing or talking with someone all the time.. I love to do it with my own terms and with those special people. But the truth is that I get bored to even my best friends occationally and the more one pushes him/herself to my company the more I try to avoid them. Same thing happends if one is trying to feed opinions to me.. For example that´s why I feel uncomfortable around religious people.. they feel like they need to convert me to their religion, to their beliefs. And I think that what I believe is my business and my business ONLY.

So what´s the conclusion.. if you want me to be on your side, do it gently, don´t try to push your thoughts with force. I have opinions of my own and I can decide for myself. And for now I´ve decided that I absolutely LOVE Vincent Ventresca as Darien Fawkes.. and I would like to be like Darien Fawkes, invisible, if only for one day.. You can do a lot in one day, right?!!

What would you do if you could be invisible?!? Or would you like to have some other "superpower"?!!

Best artist of us all

Mother nature is THE best artist ever. And how could one not be inspired when seeing these beautiful sunset pictures. And the best thing about these pictures is the fact that I see this scenery basically every night from my window, sitting right here next to my computer.

And the clouds here. Indeed interesting. Not as interesting as the squirrels at "my" backyard but quite interesting anyway. :) The last picture is from my father´s place. Nice, misty feeling in there, right?!

Project in progress

After a lot of thinking and planning I started a new blog for only my art and handicraft projects.

You´ll find it from

http://deathcumsinsmallpacks.blogspot.com

Cruel but catchy

Sing along.. ;)

Totally nuts

I went to downtown today. Visited my favourite little candy store. Didn´t buy any candy but bought a huge bag of nuts. Cashew, walnut and so on.. And of course my new favourites, roasted corn. Now all I need is some good show on TV.. I´ll have to wait until 9pm.. Then starts Las Vegas and after it comes Sandhogs. Yeah, I know that I watch some weird programs... or have at least weird combinations. Partially popular series and then those not-so-popular-ones... Aabout that.. I actually had a quite nice experience last night. I was bored, so I surfed the internet and ended up to one of my favourite sites, CDON.com. And what I found out was that you can rent a movie from their site. They had a free trial offer, a movie named Just add water, with Danny DeVito and Dylan Walsh. Naturally I had to try the rental, no cost and all. It was quite nice. I was so disappointed when I saw that there´s nothing on TV so this was a perfect solution. The movie wasn´t that special but it took a couple hours of my time nicely.. And I even made a pair of mittens to my nephew during the film. Just have to finish them up. :D

I´m in the mood that I need to do something all the time. Especially involving my hobbies, I have the need to create something new. On Sunday I joined Ravelry. It is a knit and crochet community. And I´m actually quite glad that I joined. I was a bit hesitant at first because my English skills on the subject aren´t very good but luckily my friend linked me a dictionary, so now I can suck in all the information about garns and patterns. My friends know that I knit a lot woolen socks with skulls because people seem to like them. But I´ve had the problem with those socks that I haven´t had any time to develop the model and that becomes a problem if one wants to do unique stuff like I do. I still haven´t done two pair of socks that are alike, always had some small differences in them. And luckily my friend Heidi spoke me to join Ravelry. I´ve found new patterns I can use for my socks. :) I can continue doing unique socks for friends and family.

I´m also waiting to get to the right mood for painting or drawing. I want to do it so much. Inspiration is in the right place but I´m a bit hesitant with that too.. Afraid to start so to say.. but I´m getting there, slowly but anyway. Writing comes quite easily for me at the moment, so that I don´t have to worry about. And that is something I´m glad about. I would write this blog even if no one would read it. Subject doesn´t matter, I´ll write basically about anything these days.

To the end let me say: I feel like Dope... ;)

Updating myself and my blog

It took a couple of test posts before I understood how to change the background and edit pictures in this blog. But by doing few mistakes I now am happy with what I´ve learned.. and I did it all by myself!! And I have to say that it is easier than I thought. And for now, I´m happy about the way my updated blog looks like (more skulls can´t be bad). I might get fed up with it already tomorrow, but hey.. all change isn´t for worse.

As I updated my blog I changed my profile picture as well. For obvious reasons.. I´ve updated myself as well. I have a new hair-do I absolutely adore. Espcially the chocolate brown colour. My hair-stylist didn´t take that much off the length which is fine although I wouldn´t mind a shorter cut either. Olli probably thought that I should still let grow a little longer. The jacket I wear in my profile picture is new as well. My old jacket said our deal off... fake leather, the skin starts peeling off of it. So I bought a new one, with half price.. and real leather! Like it a lot!! That´s all folks, now it´s time for me to take my beauty sleep..

Friday fever

Went out last night with a couple of friends and met some more at the bar. Had a blast. Some free drinks, free food, great conversations, many laughs and good music.

Social life

Sitting at home in a Saturday night. Have no inspiration to do anything. The week has been so social that now sitting at home, alone, feels sort of... strange. On the other hand I miss people around me but on the other hand I enjoy the quiet time. I can do whatever I want. Or not to do.

As I wrote before, I visited my brother and his wife this week. Tuesday as I arrived, my brother Jim sat on the porch with his son, my cute little nephew. Well, not that little, boy is 7 months and weights over 10 kg. He was a bit shy at first but it didn´t take more than few minutes when he started giggling and smiling.

I also got the first look of their puppy. His name is Väpä and he is a Bernese mountain dog. I guess we didn´t do anything that special on Tuesday or Wednesday either. I spent time with my nephew and the puppy so that Reija could do necessary housework like dishes, washing and so on.. She even got some spare time so she could write her blog. :) Reijas friend Kaisa visited on Wednesday as well as Reijas mother and aunt with her kids.

On Thursday after my brother came from work, we went for a walk with Reija. We left Jim with the little ones and went to get some air. Later that night my brother started to feel a bit sick and so he was.. fever. He went to work anyway on Friday but he came home earlier since he started feeling sick again. Before he came, I spent the morning with the puppy dog when Reija and Weeti were in babygym. I cut and sewed curtains for their bedroom and waited for them to come back home. When they did, I made coffee while Reija was taking a shower and Weeti was sleeping outside. Poor little thing had fallen asleep in the middle of babygym. He had been tired and cranky for a couple of days and Reija thought he was coming sick, maybe flu or something.. We were watching a movie when boy started crying and nothing seemed to help. Finally, an hour before I left, he threw up.. luckily he seemed to feel better after that.

Father and son. My brother and nephew. Jim and Weeti.