Bad bad blogs and catalogs

Feels like the time have stopped today.. like this Sunday is endless. So slowly time goes for me today... Don´t know the reason for it, might be the partying last night, I´m feeling a bit worn out. Anyway, this has one bad consequense. I´m getting bored and I´m starting to surf the internet.. Today I´ve been surfing in different blogs, most of them ok, found even a couple real good ones. What makes those blogs real bad, is the fact there was really beautiful pictures and I´ve been longing for a new camera... You might guess where this is going to.. :)

Well, I´ve been daydreaming about digital SLR camera (Don´t know for sure if that´s the right term in English, found a camera dictionary but only from English to Finnish.) but I would also like to have a "pocket version" which I could carry with me all the time. Well, since I´ll soon be unemployed I can´t afford the SLR but... here it comes.. A few days ago I got a post order catalog from Hobby Hall and they have online store as well.. so I kinda did order myself Canon Digital IXUS 95 IS... The deposit is only 38 euros and the monthly payment is 15,40 euros. I did order a memorycard for the camera as well but still, I think I made a good deal.. although I´m losing money in it..

Can´t just skip the party last night with that one sentence written above.. Met a couple of old school friends in Blanko where Homegrove was spinning his records. Homegrove a.k.a. Hannu is one of those friends and he invited me to come to take that-oh-so-famous ONE drink and listen to him play.. I did drink two.. then I continued my way to S-Osis to listen my dear friend Tommy play with Crystal Extasy. Drank a bit more. Not too much though, I´m not having hangover today. Just enough so I slept more than well. :) And now, as I´m looking out from my window, it seems like Tommy is thinking me still today since it looks like there will be rain.. Need to go and get my laundry in. L8r allig8ors!

Fight club

A real good friend of mine once told me that "If it feels like life is kicking your ass kick it back twice as hard". I feel like kicking today. ;)

Reality check

I´ll be unemployed starting 1st September 2009..

Ride along with the wind

It´s been raining here since yesterday. There was some thunder and lightning last night as well. I´ve been trying to cheer myself up a bit today, by listening some good music..

I´m not feeling blue because of the rainy day. Nowadays, actually, rainy days bring a smile on my face, thanks to a very good friend. Rainy days are sort of inside joke for me and Tommy. Last time it was really raining, I was at job and he called me.. just to ask if I know what happends to a white shirt in heavy rain. He had been out when the sky opened. You can probably guess that I smiled the rest of the day. Rainy days and feathers are our things..

I don´t know exactly why I´m feeling like this today. I guess it´s the situation at my job. I would like so much call myself sick for the rest of the week. But I won´t.. that´s the curse of being me. It would be nice to be someone else occationally, at least for a day.. leave this all behind and just be.. travel around the world, meet new people.. make paintings sitting by the Thames.. climb Kilimanjaro and go to a wildlife safari in Africa with a professional camera in my hand.. hug a koala in Australia.. just.. ride along with the wind...

Money. Doing all the things written above requires money. And to get money.. I need a job. Seems like an endless circle. But hey, at least I have rainy days in Finland and a good friend called Tommy.. :) Let´s do the raindance..

Early one morning

So I woke up early today. I had to. Less than 10 minutes I will be out of water. They are fixing something and after last night I needed my morning shower. And I´m not really a morning person. I´m a nightwalker. But since I´m awake I thought that I could try to write something.

Actually I do like mornings. I just don´t like waking up. I love the silence and the light of the mornings, I sure don´t mind sunrise and I absolutely adore my morning tea or coffee. And I have a proper mug for that too. Or what do you think about this one?!

I started my morning today with thinking of my nephew, Weeti. Don´t ask me why, it´s probably the photo I have on my shelf. My sister-in-law has great videos and photos of that little cutie in her blog and in Facebook. Some of those make one to smile and laugh everytime, over and over again. As I wrote before I´m in the age that everybody starts worrying whether I´m ever gonna get kids of my own. I do worry it myself at times too. I´m not having a babyfever but I am starting to feel that I´m ready to take that kind of responsibility of an other person. But I still haven´t found that special someone to make babies with. I thought I did, but....

Anyway, if I´m soon going to be unemployed my brother could hire me as their babysitter. :) Well, maybe not but hope to see my nephew soon again.

Wish it was Christmas..

Countdown: 5 days equals 30 hours. End result is unemployed?? It might well be this way for me. Nobody seems to know yet, at least that´s what they keep telling at my job. I´m not going to be the only one left without job but still.. this situation pisses me off. It pisses me off that they´ve let this go on ´til the last minute and they still don´t have anything to tell, it pisses me off that so far I´ve been well able to pay back my student loan, my rent, phone, I´ve bought myself with MY own money all that I´ve needed: computer, printer, bicycle, food, phones etc. And don´t get me wrong, I´m not saying that money makes me happy (or anyone else for that matter) but it sure makes things easier. And life may become more difficult after five days for me.. you guessed right, IT PISSES ME OFF. And this may be the worst moment ever to end up without work when everywhere, everybody is talking about the great depression.. No matter that I´m a hard working and trustworthy.. (I do more than my own share.)

And like that´s not enough. I turned 30 this year. Lets face it: I´m not getting any younger. Everybody expects me to have children soon, it doesn´t really matter that there´s no man in my life worthy enough to be the father for my kids.. There´s no man that fits to my demands.. And it´s not too much I wait from my future-to-be-husband-and-father-to-my-kids; all I expect from the man of my life is that he knows what he wants, he takes what he wants.. and he wants me. I don´t expect anything more that I´m ready to give back.. but I´m giving all of myself when it comes to that point.

So.. in my deepest blue I wish it was Christmas. Peace and quiet on earth, warm loving people around me and no worries about the future, whatever it may bring..

No 1

So.. this is my first text in blogspot. I chose to write this first text in English because that way everyone should be able to understand. Later on I probably mix the three languages that I speak (finnish, swedish & english) depending on how I feel and wich language I´ve been using in my thoughts. :)

This is going to be a blog about my life, my thoughts and everything in between.. The title: Life between heaven and Hell includes it all. (The big initial in the word Hell refers to my last name Hellbom.) I´m writing this blog mostly for myself, but if someone else likes to read it, that´s fine by me. You are free to leave comments if you feel like it but at the end of the day, I don´t really care whether you agree or disagree with me. I´ll be acting as the greatest dictator when it comes to this blog.

With these words I`ll welcome each and everyone of you to take a peek into my life.. See you in heaven.. or Hell. Hahahaha.