2009-09-29

The Invisible Man

I didn´t have my TV on last night. There was nothing interesting enough. Instead I sat here next to my computer and watched The Invisible Man from YouTube. Not the old one but the one with Vincent Ventresca as Darien Fawkes. Didn´t really remember how much I love that serie.. and how good it was!!!! I´m going to continue watching it today at some point.

It got me thinking though.. What would I do if I was invisible..?! I would most certainly sneak into airplanes and travel around the world. Probably "borrow" some money from bank. Make a mess in a couple of places where I´ve worked.. tease a few people by whispering to their ears certain truths.. Nothing that exciting or bad. Illegal perhaps, but.. A person might even get away with murder if being invisible.. but would I do it, if it was a real possibility..?? I don´t know for sure.. maybe..

Lately I´ve been trying to be invisible for one person. I´ve been irritated at this person because whenever I get online that person is there right away to make a comment, tell something I couldn´t care less at the moment. Especially it irritates me in the mornings. I´m not a morning person. When I put my laptop on in the mornings I barely have opened my eyes!! Feels a bit like this person is violating my privacy, breaking into my area.. I don´t have the need to be writing or talking with someone all the time.. I love to do it with my own terms and with those special people. But the truth is that I get bored to even my best friends occationally and the more one pushes him/herself to my company the more I try to avoid them. Same thing happends if one is trying to feed opinions to me.. For example that´s why I feel uncomfortable around religious people.. they feel like they need to convert me to their religion, to their beliefs. And I think that what I believe is my business and my business ONLY.

So what´s the conclusion.. if you want me to be on your side, do it gently, don´t try to push your thoughts with force. I have opinions of my own and I can decide for myself. And for now I´ve decided that I absolutely LOVE Vincent Ventresca as Darien Fawkes.. and I would like to be like Darien Fawkes, invisible, if only for one day.. You can do a lot in one day, right?!!

What would you do if you could be invisible?!? Or would you like to have some other "superpower"?!!

2009-09-27

Best artist of us all

Mother nature is THE best artist ever. And how could one not be inspired when seeing these beautiful sunset pictures. And the best thing about these pictures is the fact that I see this scenery basically every night from my window, sitting right here next to my computer.



And the clouds here. Indeed interesting. Not as interesting as the squirrels at "my" backyard but quite interesting anyway. :) The last picture is from my father´s place. Nice, misty feeling in there, right?!


2009-09-25

Project in progress

After a lot of thinking and planning I started a new blog for only my art and handicraft projects.
You´ll find it from

2009-09-22

Cruel but catchy

Sing along.. ;)

Totally nuts

I went to downtown today. Visited my favourite little candy store. Didn´t buy any candy but bought a huge bag of nuts. Cashew, walnut and so on.. And of course my new favourites, roasted corn. Now all I need is some good show on TV.. I´ll have to wait until 9pm.. Then starts Las Vegas and after it comes Sandhogs. Yeah, I know that I watch some weird programs... or have at least weird combinations. Partially popular series and then those not-so-popular-ones... Aabout that.. I actually had a quite nice experience last night. I was bored, so I surfed the internet and ended up to one of my favourite sites, CDON.com. And what I found out was that you can rent a movie from their site. They had a free trial offer, a movie named Just add water, with Danny DeVito and Dylan Walsh. Naturally I had to try the rental, no cost and all. It was quite nice. I was so disappointed when I saw that there´s nothing on TV so this was a perfect solution. The movie wasn´t that special but it took a couple hours of my time nicely.. And I even made a pair of mittens to my nephew during the film. Just have to finish them up. :D

I´m in the mood that I need to do something all the time. Especially involving my hobbies, I have the need to create something new. On Sunday I joined Ravelry. It is a knit and crochet community. And I´m actually quite glad that I joined. I was a bit hesitant at first because my English skills on the subject aren´t very good but luckily my friend linked me a dictionary, so now I can suck in all the information about garns and patterns. My friends know that I knit a lot woolen socks with skulls because people seem to like them. But I´ve had the problem with those socks that I haven´t had any time to develop the model and that becomes a problem if one wants to do unique stuff like I do. I still haven´t done two pair of socks that are alike, always had some small differences in them. And luckily my friend Heidi spoke me to join Ravelry. I´ve found new patterns I can use for my socks. :) I can continue doing unique socks for friends and family.

I´m also waiting to get to the right mood for painting or drawing. I want to do it so much. Inspiration is in the right place but I´m a bit hesitant with that too.. Afraid to start so to say.. but I´m getting there, slowly but anyway. Writing comes quite easily for me at the moment, so that I don´t have to worry about. And that is something I´m glad about. I would write this blog even if no one would read it. Subject doesn´t matter, I´ll write basically about anything these days.

To the end let me say: I feel like Dope... ;)

Updating myself and my blog

It took a couple of test posts before I understood how to change the background and edit pictures in this blog. But by doing few mistakes I now am happy with what I´ve learned.. and I did it all by myself!! And I have to say that it is easier than I thought. And for now, I´m happy about the way my updated blog looks like (more skulls can´t be bad). I might get fed up with it already tomorrow, but hey.. all change isn´t for worse.

As I updated my blog I changed my profile picture as well. For obvious reasons.. I´ve updated myself as well. I have a new hair-do I absolutely adore. Espcially the chocolate brown colour. My hair-stylist didn´t take that much off the length which is fine although I wouldn´t mind a shorter cut either. Olli probably thought that I should still let grow a little longer. The jacket I wear in my profile picture is new as well. My old jacket said our deal off... fake leather, the skin starts peeling off of it. So I bought a new one, with half price.. and real leather! Like it a lot!! That´s all folks, now it´s time for me to take my beauty sleep..

2009-09-19

Friday fever


Went out last night with a couple of friends and met some more at the bar. Had a blast. Some free drinks, free food, great conversations, many laughs and good music.

Social life

Sitting at home in a Saturday night. Have no inspiration to do anything. The week has been so social that now sitting at home, alone, feels sort of... strange. On the other hand I miss people around me but on the other hand I enjoy the quiet time. I can do whatever I want. Or not to do.

As I wrote before, I visited my brother and his wife this week. Tuesday as I arrived, my brother Jim sat on the porch with his son, my cute little nephew. Well, not that little, boy is 7 months and weights over 10 kg. He was a bit shy at first but it didn´t take more than few minutes when he started giggling and smiling.


I also got the first look of their puppy. His name is Väpä and he is a Bernese mountain dog. I guess we didn´t do anything that special on Tuesday or Wednesday either. I spent time with my nephew and the puppy so that Reija could do necessary housework like dishes, washing and so on.. She even got some spare time so she could write her blog. :) Reijas friend Kaisa visited on Wednesday as well as Reijas mother and aunt with her kids.
On Thursday after my brother came from work, we went for a walk with Reija. We left Jim with the little ones and went to get some air. Later that night my brother started to feel a bit sick and so he was.. fever. He went to work anyway on Friday but he came home earlier since he started feeling sick again. Before he came, I spent the morning with the puppy dog when Reija and Weeti were in babygym. I cut and sewed curtains for their bedroom and waited for them to come back home. When they did, I made coffee while Reija was taking a shower and Weeti was sleeping outside. Poor little thing had fallen asleep in the middle of babygym. He had been tired and cranky for a couple of days and Reija thought he was coming sick, maybe flu or something.. We were watching a movie when boy started crying and nothing seemed to help. Finally, an hour before I left, he threw up.. luckily he seemed to feel better after that.
Father and son. My brother and nephew. Jim and Weeti.

2009-09-17

Sleep well

I´ve been visiting my brother starting from Tuesday and today is my last night here. It´s half past ten and I´m the only one awake.. others went to bed at nine. Tomorrow I´m heading back home. I´ve entertained my nephew and had otherwise great time as well. Pictures will come later this week. And more text as well during the weekend. Now I´ll take off to bed with a book (read the Torey Hayden: The Mechanical Cat.. and liked it!!) written by Åke Edwardsson, Room number 10 (originally in swedish: Rum nummer 10). Sweet dreams everyone...

2009-09-13

Bored assless

The definition of the saying "bored assless" by Urban Dictionary is: When one is too bored to just sit around. I was that bored today. So I took my camera and jumped to a bus and headed to downtown. I took a stroll in the city and these are some of the pictures I took.



2009-09-12

Imagine that

On Thursday I went to movies, watched the Quentin Tarantino film Inglourious Basterds. Absolutely loved it!! And I adore Lt. Aldo Raine. When I first saw the trailer I didn´t feel for him, it didn´t seem like a role for Brad Pitt. But he was fantastic in it. Just as he was in The curious case of Benjamin Button, dvd I watched yesterday. And since I was heading to downtown yesterday to buy that dvd, I also took a stroll in the library. I brought three books with me. And already I´m so fascinated about the one I started with I can barely sit here next to my computer. In fact, I wouldn´t want to leave the appartment at all today, I´d rather just lie in my bed with the book. But the good thing is that I need to go out, otherwise I´ll starve to hunger. Besides, it´s a beautiful day outside. On days like this I wished I had a balcony.

Anyway, the reason I´m writing about books and movies... they nourish my imagination. Once again, when I started to read (I started with the book of Torey Hayden: The Mechanical Cat) I started to feel that I should be writing more.. I´ve been thinking for years already that someday I´ll write a book.. Three books actually, all of them in a bit different genre. I´d like to write a fantasy book. Especially this feeling grows strong when I read books of R. A. Salvatore. If you´ve read one of his books, basically any of them goes, you know why I love his books. The way he describes Drizzt Do´Urden in the middle of a fight.. those are the moments when I fly high. :) And the dwarf named Pikel.. the cutest and funniest thing ever. Well, I´m getting off the track.. The writing thing.. I´d like to write a fantasy book. I have all the characters ready and the places mostly as well.. but the main part of the plot seems to hiding from me. And that´s the reason why I haven´t started yet, I suppose you could say that I´m scared. I have the same problem with my futuristic private detective-story as well as with the story about the retired assassin named Jeremiah Swan.. and I´m sort of scared to start the writing because I don´t know how those stories end.. I know I could just go with the flow, but.. what if I never reach the end of those stories.. and if (and I mean IF) I ever get those stories written, what happends then? Will anyone read them? Will someone find them interesting enough to be published?

It reminds me of the problem I have with drawing. I know I´m good at it. And people always find my drawings/paintings etc. good if not awesome. The problem is the fact that in drawing (probably in any creative thing I do) I´m perfectionist. No matter how many people say that my work is good, it´fine. it´s marvellous.. if I feel that one of the lines is misplaced 1 mm, I can´t feel satisfied with the work. And it makes me sort of scared, scared of taking a pen and placing it on a paper. I find this weird. I´m not this strict about other things in my life. I´m the kind of person that doesn´t judge anybody straight ahead, I´ll go with the flow and I´m scared of nothing.. You can basically talk me into all sort of crazy things just by saying that I don´t dare to do it.. but these things... I´ll just freeze.

I guess I´ll keep on warming up.. writing this blog. And maybe one day I´ll find myself brave enough, or I´ll figure out the plot of those stories and I´ll just write them..

2009-09-09

Random readers and nice neighbors

Yesterday I noticed that there´s a new follower in my blog. Her name is Sarah. I don´t know her so I checked her blog. And it got me to thinking about random readers. I admit that I am a random reader yet I´m also active reader. I follow some blogs very actively. Some of them are written by family members and some of those writers I don´t know any more than I know this Sarah who is reading my blog. So why do I read these blogs if I don´t know the reader..?! I guess it must be the fact that I find those inspiring. Some of them have beautiful photos, some of them have a great sense of humour and so on.. Those blogs give me new ideas and they even might give me a wider perspective on how to think, what to write and how to see things. For those same reasons I go through those random blogs. And sometimes it happens that I find some blog so interesting that I become active reader of it.

I know that some of my friends follow my blog even though they aren´t on my follower list. My sister isn´t on the list and she does follow my blog pretty actively. Actually, she wrote a note on her own blog that her sister (= me) is writing a blog and added the address of my site there as well.. so there will be more readers, random and active, I suppose. So I guess I need to thank my sister for that.. :) Love you sis´!!

And ofcourse, welcome new readers. Random or not.

The other subject of the day is neighbors. As some of you know, I live in Turku. Turku is a city of 175 000 people and it´s going be the Capital of Culture in 2011. So this is a city where is alot going on. I live about 4 or 5 km from the city center and the atmosphere here is totally opposite to the downtown. There is alot of possibilities nearby, shopping center, swimming hall etc. and when looking out you would never believe it.. All you can see from my windows is the house next to this, childrens playground and forest. When I get out, the first things I see is a football field behind the trees. So the nature is close here, even though with bus it takes 15 minutes to get to downtown.. And I guess that the nature has some sort of influence to my neighbors as well.. Just last night one of my neighbors ringed my doorbell and brought me some lingonberry buns and two slices of pancake he made himself. He also did give his phone number if there ever is something I need help with.. he likes to repair all kind of electronical devices..

And he´s not the only one like this. Most of my neighbors are polite and friendly, always talking when we see outdoors or at the elevator, asking how are things and stuff like that.. During the spring I had a special person visiting me quite often and he told me that maybe he´s visiting me too often because my neighbors were saying hellos and that sort of stuff to him as well.. And people tend to say that people in Turku are introverted, warming up slowly for outsiders.. Could this be more untrue.. :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SZlD96hvTNw

Death is a son of a bitch..

Today September 9th is the birthday of my half sister Jonna. She died 4 years ago in the age of 18. Today she would be 22 years old. She died with cancer. So today I added a link to Socialvibe, chose a sponsor, L´Oreal Paris, to support my cause; Stand up 2 cancer. Everytime you use the link at the end of my page, L´Oreal Paris will donate money for cancer research.

It´s up to you.

2009-09-08

Just jeans

Today I have only three things planned.
1. Buy food from the near store.
2. Take a shower.
3. Repair jeans.
Not necessarily in this order.

2009-09-07

2009-09-04

Leaving on a jet plane..

Well not exactly. But my bags are packed and I´m waiting information about my ride. Going to visit my dad this weekend in Kemiö, hopefully get to see my nephew as well. I was in the city yesterday and bought him nice pair of pants, so he can continue taking his mum out for walks. Even if it rains a little ´cause those pants are water proof. Unfortunately my brother didn´t warm up for the idea of me buying my nephew a leather jacket.. weird. Those jackets were so cute. But the price on them wasn´t that adorable, so I probably would have passed it anyway.

I had my new camera with me yesterday as well but I didn´t take any photos. It was such a beautiful day so I enjoyed it many other ways. I took a walk by the riverside and enjoyed the sun. It was quite relaxing to watch people and boats pass by, some of them in hurry. I was taking it slow. :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iMM7ckbzDRY

It´s been a while since I´ve seen Dumbo last time... maybe I should buy the dvd.. :)

2009-09-02

I´ve got dreams..

Right after I wrote this morning I got a message that my camera has arrived. Funny how some dreams come true.. :) So maybe I´ll have to take a walk by the riverside tomorrow with my new camera, who knows what I´ll find.

More about dreams. After I came from biking I took a little nap on my bed.. As expected, I fell asleep. And I had the weirdest dream you can imagine.. There was a group of people in Italy, me and my friend Tommy included. And for some reason we desided to climb up the famous tower of Pisa. (I believe I´ve read somewhere that the upper parts of the tower are closed from use because the staircase is in so bad shape...) Anyway, we climbed up ´til I was stuck in a place that didn´t allow me to continue upwards or go back down either.. Tommy got a bit higher and when he at last was coming back down.. the staircase broke under him and he fell right through it.. I remember thinking in my dream that I can´t go up or down, but I have my mobile phone in my pocket... unfortunately we were in Italy and I don´t speak the language... Then I woke up..

It´s not often I remember my dreams and the ones I do remember seem to be weird in a way or another.. like the one where I got shot in to my heart.. I remember watching the bullet come towards me like in slow-motion.. I even watched it break into my heart and the blood bursted out from my chest... I woke up feeling real weird.. I actually died twice that night in my dreams.. one of my best friends stabbed me with a knife in the following dream..

Anyway, I got my camera now.... Can´t wait to take it in use!! :D

Overloaded

So, yesterday was my first day as unemployed. I was riding my bike around in the city taking care of necessary things. I also used my gift sertificate that I got from work as a farewell present. Bought myself a huge pile of thread so now I have all winter of knitting in front of me. Hopefully I get something done for myself as well.. :) Friends and family are challenging me by giving me ideas with their requests.

"Never mind the skulls, I want Elvis socks!"

"Our whole family love Tigger.."

My head is getting overloaded of the ideas. I can´t concentrate just on one thing. As I knit this one here I´m already planning that one there. Well, at least there won´t be problems how to spend my time as unemployed. Problems may appear if I don´t get out every now and then, away from the knitting and all of my own projects. I love my hobbies and when I was working I did hope to have more time for them. But 24/7 might be too much. Thank goodness earlier in the summer I got myself a bike so if nothing else gets me out of the house I´ll take the new camera (hopefully it arrives soon) and my bike and disappear to the wilderness..

To other concerns. As said I´m unemployed. The good thing in it is the fact that I don´t need to hurry with anything or to anywhere. So why on earth am I waking up at 7 am..???? Me, who hates waking up and likes to sleep late whenever it´s possible. Well, today I don´t mind the early start because the sun is shining and it seems it´s going to be a beautiful day. I´ll take my bike for a ride and maybe take my knitting outside as well..

But now, since I don´t need to hurry, I´ll make myself another cup of tea and enjoy the day.. Maybe even write something more later on.