Tattoos & Tequila

If you didn't know it yet, I absolutely love Mötley Crüe. After saying that I must say that they've given me sort of mixed feelings lately. I just finished reading Vince Neil's book "Tattoos & Tequila - To hell and back with one of rock's most notorious frontmen". Loved it almost as much as I did love "The Dirt" and "Heroin Diaries". But as said.. mixed feelings.

I do get his feelings about that his bandmates let him down when he was in jail and when Skylar was in hospital for the cancer treatments. Plus the Razzle incident. But I do understand his fellow bandmembers as well. To react to the situation correctly, so to say, they should've had their own shit together.. and they sure as hell didn't have their shit together. Besides, Nikki agreed to give an interview for his book and did NOT say one bad thing about Vince.. okey, he spoke mostly about the band and mentioned himself a couple of times too much, but still.. kinda seems like the only one Mr Neil ends up hurting is himself. And he even said in the book that somewhere deep down they surely love each others.. why not let the old thing go, be by-gones..? Why not just simply open his mouth and tell straight to their faces that "hey guys, I love you and shit, but I was hurt by the things that happened" and then move on..? It can't be that hard. Focus on the good things you've had, right?

Yet at the same time I see the resemblance in my own life.. but all can't be equally trustworthy friends, as well all things said and done just can't be forgotten. But at least I try to learn about it.. and then I move on. I've tucked all the shit happened to me to the backpocket of my jeans so to say.. and try actively forget where I put it. :D Some things are easier to forget than others.. and to be honest, some things I don't even want to forget. Because if there ever comes more shittier situations with those same people from the past.. I'll just put my hand to my backpocket and shove that shit to their face. But I'm not looking to get my revenge, I'm not that pitiful person. I'll just keep those things in my mind just in case of emergency, sort of a back-up plan to distract people while I escape.. ;D

But about books.. can't wait for my "Tommyland" to arrive.. :) And I even ordered myself FINALLY my own "The Dirt".. I've already bought it twice but haven't got one for myself.. and while waiting, I'll drown myself to fantasy world created by Paul Hoffman, "The left hand of God".