From rejection 2 success?!

As I wrote in my previous update, I've been lately surrounded with extremely positive people. Although I find their positive attitude helping and refreshing there's one thing I realized today as I was reading a book by Robert T. Kiyosaki and Sharon L. Lechter. One thing I need to do myself.

I pretty much hate being rejected when I think I'm right. I'm actually afraid of being rejected. Don't we all, in one way or another? And I'm a person who's not afraid of anything, or so I thought. I've had excuses like "I don't like talking with people on the phone", "I don't like selling" or "We don't have anything in common to talk about". Ofcourse there is the fact that I have this speech disorder, I can't pronounce the letter "R" that well. But when I came to thinking of it today, I came to conclusion that it shouldn't be that big of a problem. I've had this speech disorder for 33 years already and I've become pretty much a master in avoiding that certain letter when talking. So it's more of an excuse than an obstacle. It's an excuse to avoid the thing I'm really afraid of, rejection. It's been an excuse not be the first one to say "I love you" ("Minä rakastan sinua" in Finnish.), it's been an excuse not to take care of things over the phone etc..

Let me tell you a little secret. I'm going to get over it. I've already started with it, without even realizing it myself. I've told him those three little words, many times in fact. And he didn't reject me because of it. He hasn't said those words to me (yet) but I'm ok with it. It just means that he's not quite there yet. I'm just being happy (and extremely lucky I think) that I've found one individual who doesn't get scared of hearing those words from me. I was scared to say those words, that I can admit. I pretty much thought that me saying those words first might be the end of our relationship. But I believe I've got a little risk-taker built in me and I took my chances. He laughed at me when I said it the first time. He laughed because I asked if he could promise me that he won't get scared if I say what's on my mind. Well, he didn't promise that to me but said afterwards that he doesn't get scared that easily. Since that night, I've been more brave and he always reacts in the best of ways to me saying those words.

So yes, being afraid of rejection is normal. But if people can beat their fears one way or another, it might surprise one, how things turn out. I can honestly say that this relationship is the most grown-up relationship I've ever had. And I believe that as long as we can talk about this kind of things, we'll be just fine. My advice?? First of all: talk, talk and talk. Second: face your fears, take the risk. You might fail or get rejected, but you'll learn from the experience if you want to. As my Alter Bridge tattoo on my right arm says: THE RISK IS WORTH THE GAIN.